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Finding Out

October 11, 2017 50 Comments

“Did you throw up? Is that how you found out you were pregnant?”

Jim’s 8-year-old sister asked me this over dinner last night. I told her that wasn’t the case for me and she said matter-of-factly, “Usually, people throw up and that means they’re pregnant!” The girl watches a lot of TV and movies!😂 To be completely honest, I can’t say I knew a whole lot more than an 8-year-old.

When I was in college, I heard about a number of girls having pregnancy scares. Around that time, my mom introduced me to birth control pills as a way to regulate my period and keep my skin from breaking out. I’ve never missed a period for more than a day or two even when I went off the pill over a year ago. It’s safe to say I’ve never had a pregnancy scare.

Never missing my period made me feel either one of two things:

  1. I am the luckiest girl in the world!
  2. There is something wrong with me and I will never bear a child.

I’ve lived most of my adult life thinking this way so when I was on Day 5 of missing my period, I didn’t understand it. When I casually told Jim on Day 3, he just shrugged and said, “wala lang yan.” Ahh, men. They never have to deal with keeping track of the days when dirty blood streams from their privates! LOL.

On Day 5 (technically 6 because it was past midnight), I was already tipsy from taking shots at a bar with Jim and our friends. I kept giggling and whispering that I shouldn’t be drinking because I might be pregnant. He also laughed and we hugged and swayed and internally freaked out.

Going home, the alcohol had done its job by making me more anxious than usual. I demanded that Jim bring us to a drug store so we could buy a pregnancy test. It was around 2 AM and we were both tired. The nearest 24-hour drug store was quite far from our home so he was trying to bargain for a next day purchase. I started going off at him and he finally snapped.

“Why are you acting as if being pregnant would be the worst thing in the world??”

He sounded so hurt but because I’d been drinking and wasn’t thinking straight, I automatically became defensive and wanted to fire back at him. I shouted, “Eh kung pagbili nga lang ng pregnancy test, ayaw mong gawin eh!! How are we going to be parents?!” HAHAHA I know, I can be pretty horrible :(

So we went to the drug store, tensions all high, only to learn that pregnancy tests were out of stock. GREAT!

We both went to bed that night feeling really bad. :(

The next day, we went about our day as normal. We don’t really keep in touch during work hours. Towards the end of the day, I got a text from him that he bought pregnancy tests and I could take them when he got home.

Before taking any tests, we sat down and talked. I apologized for being a bad drunk and hurting his feelings the night before. He told me that he’s always respected my views on not having children right away but he was concerned because once or twice in the past, I had declared to friends that I imagined us without any children. It wasn’t what we initially discussed when we got married and he felt like it was a decision we should be able to make together.

Although I completely understand the choice not to have children, I must admit that I subconsciously used this mindset as a defense mechanism because of my fear that I wouldn’t be able to bear any. (By the way, I took some tests last year with my OB-GYNE and everything checked out so I don’t know why I still believed there was something wrong with my reproductive health!!)

I explained this all to Jim and we made up before taking the test.

We agreed to accept whatever the result was, and we would deal with it together.

I peed on the stick, waited a couple of minutes and we only saw one line (negative). We hugged and went on with our lives – he played 2K18, I watched Grey’s Anatomy.

Still, I felt strange because 1) WHERE THE HECK WAS AUNT FLOW?? and 2) maybe I wanted that stick to show two lines??

Over an hour later, I went back into the bathroom where we left the test and there was a distinct second line. My heart stopped and I called Jim. We freaked out for a little while until Google pointed out that it could just be an evaporation line that shows up when the test has been out for too long. We decided to take the second pregnancy test the next morning since Google also pointed out that it’s best to take a PT using your first pee of the day.

This faint second line showed up in a matter of minutes but since we both had never taken a pregnancy test before, I sent my OB-GYNE a message and he said to drop by that same day. I took a hospital-grade test and my doctor said “congratulations!”

That was the moment that changed our lives forever.

We couldn’t contain our excitement and happiness. I didn’t think I would be automatically 100% ready to change my life for this baby but I was! Jim and I looked at each other with huge eyes telepathically saying WTFFFFFF OMGGGGG. Hahaha! I don’t think I’ll ever forget that. We couldn’t stop smiling for days.

The hardest part was having to keep it a secret from everybody until the first ultrasound.

But that’s another story because, as you know by now, we were in for a double surprise!

♥,
Saab

Saab

50 Comments

  1. Reply

    Ipay

    October 11, 2017

    CONGRATULATIONS!!! 😭💛

  2. Reply

    Erika

    October 11, 2017

    This is such a cute story!!!! Hahaha! I’m so excited for you and Jim! ❤ bitin the kwento! When is the next story!!! Lol

  3. Reply

    LUNA

    October 11, 2017

    I CRIED??????????

  4. Reply

    Seah

    October 11, 2017

    Am so looking forward to reading all your Journey-to-Motherhood posts :)

  5. Reply

    Pearly

    October 11, 2017

    Saab! Congrats to you and Jim~ I don’t know many who have twins so I think that’s special ♡ And can I just gush over you and Jim and how you talk and make up? I know you’re both not perfect – nobody is – but I just like how you’re honest with each other and able to communicate well. Ingat always :D

  6. Reply

    Ja Mallari

    October 11, 2017

    Congrats Jim&Saab!💕😊

  7. Reply

    Aya

    October 11, 2017

    Awww! Super happy for the both of you, Jim and Saab!! Love you!! <3

  8. Reply

    Maisel

    October 11, 2017

    Congrats saab and jim!!! So happy for the both of you ❤️! You will be an amazing parents!!!!

  9. Reply

    Jaja

    October 11, 2017

    Congrats Jim&Saab💕😊

  10. Reply

    sunshine

    October 11, 2017

    congratulations again on your pregnancy! wishing all the best to you and the twins

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    Reena

    October 11, 2017

    Ahhh.. thank you for sharing this wonderful journey with us, Saab! You and Jim will be great as parents, no doubt! I am just so happy for you two ❤️ Have a safe pregnancy!

  12. Reply

    Karen

    October 11, 2017

    “BABIES” now tagged on Spell Saab and I can’t even contain my kilig!!! 😍

  13. Reply

    L

    October 11, 2017

    Awwww! Still so overjoyed with this news! <3

  14. Reply

    KAREENA

    October 11, 2017

    REALLY REALLY HAPPY FOR YOU TWO HUHUHU <3

  15. Reply

    Nikkie Bolivar

    October 11, 2017

    I can’t wait to read more about your pregnancy. Grabe, I’m so happy for you Saab 😊

  16. Reply

    yanbii

    October 11, 2017

    bliss

  17. Reply

    Zaia

    October 11, 2017

    I can’t imagine your happiness..utopian dream..grateful that you’ve shared this!
    Look after urself xx

  18. Reply

    Farn

    October 11, 2017

    <3<3<3 i'm so happy for you, guys! i wanna grouphug you!

  19. Reply

    Vianca

    October 12, 2017

    Kailan lang ako nagstart magbasa ng blogs mo, buti naabutan ko to! Love the story kung pano nalaman hahahaha!!! Congrats!!! 💙 Excited na ko sa future blogs mo w/ your twins 😍

  20. Reply

    Shay

    October 12, 2017

    OMG it’s a TWIN!!!

  21. Reply

    Gigi

    October 12, 2017

    Tanong lang may lahi ba kayong twins? Congrats ulit! ☺

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Yes, my dad has twin siblings na boy and girl :)

  22. Reply

    Gigi

    October 12, 2017

    thank you for sharing your experience!
    huhu I can’t imagine what my future will look like, but thank you! atleast may idea na .. ahh ganun pala hinidi lang pala ako ang nag iisip na baka may mali sa health churvaness ko huhu!

    anyway Congratulations!! :*

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      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Thank you!!

  23. Reply

    simangot

    October 12, 2017

    Uhmmm, Napuwing ba ko? lels. This is so touchy story.
    Much love for the both of you and for the twins coming soon!

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      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Hehehe thank you :)

  24. Reply

    Llana

    October 12, 2017

    Looooove this story! <3 Can't wait for the next one. :) So much love for the both of you! Ooops, 4 of you now. <3 Congratulations again, Saab! :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Thanks!!

  25. Reply

    Lani

    October 12, 2017

    Reading this felt like my sister breaking the news of her pregnancy to me. lol. FC. Haha.

    Congratulations Saab & Jim!!!
    You both are beautiful people and I’m sure your babies are too. God bless you! 😊

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Thank you!!

  26. Reply

    Anne

    October 13, 2017

    Hi Saab, first of all, congratulations! You and Jim are going to be the coolest parents ever.
    Secondly, I have mababaw na question and I hope you don’t get offended by it. You currently have bleached blonde hair. How will you maintain it now since I know preggies can’t be exposed to hair treatments because of the chemicals? Hehe

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      If you do enough research, not all hair color is super bad. Some of it is like saying “stay away from processed food while pregnant” but I’ll still eat my vienna sausage :p Hehe. I won’t bleach it na to stay on the safer side but I’ll slowly transition to darker hair just so it’s easier to maintain :) Basta bottom line is I’ll listen to what my doctor says :)

  27. Reply

    Thea

    October 13, 2017

    Saab!! I’m still soooo happy!!!! <3

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      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      <3<3<3

  28. Reply

    Jae (@gorjaeous)

    October 14, 2017

    What the heck, naiyak ako sa kwento?? Hahahahahaha

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Hehehe 😅

  29. Reply

    Ancela

    October 14, 2017

    Congratulations ! I’m a fan since you and jim got married and now? you are having a babies <3 how lovely. God is so good talaga !! Hoping for the best for both of you :* Hope to see in person ate saan #makaATELang hahha mwaa

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Thank you!!:)

  30. Reply

    Kima

    October 14, 2017

    Congratulations, Saab!

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      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Thank you :)

  31. Reply

    Yann

    October 14, 2017

    EXCITED NAKO FOR THE NEXT STORY OMG OMG OMG

  32. Reply

    Magie

    October 15, 2017

    If you haven’t purchased any pregnancy related books, I suggest you to read “What to Expect when you’re expecting” by Heidi Murkoff. Nakatulong talaga siya ng bongga since ang taas ng anxiety ko nung buntis ako lol And mttrack din ang development ng baby sobrang saya basahin. :) Congrats ulit..

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 16, 2017

      Yes, my ate lent me that book! Also reading The Mayo Clinic’s Guide to Pregnancy and What To Do When You’re Having Two :)

  33. Reply

    Jewel Clicks

    October 16, 2017

    Grabeee! ramdam ko ung away nyo nung bago kayo bumili ng PT. Congratulations! I cant wait to read your new posts about this double. :D

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    Kaye

    October 17, 2017

    I had the same result with my second child as well. I only got a very faint second line in my pregnancy test. Later I found out that it’s because I took the test in the evening and I was just 5 weeks that day. Congrats Saab! I’m so happy for you! :)

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      Saab

      October 26, 2017

      Thank you!!

  35. Reply

    Tsikiboom

    October 17, 2017

    From reading your posts at the height of tumblarity to NOW — what a ride! Just like everyone else, I’m super excited for you, Jim, Ate Joey and the babies! You make my heart happy all the time. Thank you for sharing you life with us. :)

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      Saab

      October 26, 2017

      Thank you!!

  36. Reply

    rixbajns

    October 17, 2017

    Is it funny that I “saw” these scenes and “heard” your voices while reading this?! Congratulations again, Jim and Saab! Luvyah!

    • Reply

      Saab

      October 26, 2017

      Hehehe thank you!!

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