Spell Saab

Heartbroken But Hopeful

March 6, 2018 560 Comments

This might be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.

I’ve stayed silent because I think I’ve been in denial. I thought keeping it to ourselves would make this whole thing unreal.

This last month, I was in and out of the ICU and I almost didn’t make it.

On February 8, we lost our baby girl.

Our baby boy is still in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. The doctors initially said he was in critical condition. He has fought through so many complications and had to undergo surgery and is thankfully doing much better today.

So many things happened in the last month. There are so many people we could blame and be angry with, but each time we hold our boy, we think otherwise. He’s been fighting to be part of this world and it’s our responsibility to make it one that is forgiving — one that tries to see the best in other people.

Jim says “hindi pang-tao yung pinagdadaanan natin.”

That’s why we can only thank God for helping us get through the pain and lifting the anger from our hearts.

We thank you for your concern and we ask that you continue to pray for our family, especially for our angel and for our baby boy.

Today also marks the 9th death anniversary of my dad. I know he will be looking after his apo.

We are taking it one day at a time, focusing on all the good things we are blessed with. I am still alive, I have a strong and loving husband, and God has shown us so many miracles through our little boy.

Publishing this means that this whole thing is real but I can’t keep her a secret for much longer. I need to honor her. She was such a beautiful girl and we believe she gave her life for me and her twin brother.

This whole time, we’ve been nervous about bringing children into this scary world and in an instant, our world was turned upside down. Despite this tragedy, we have encountered so many heroes and kind people. We are thankful for family, for the doctors and nurses in the NICU, ICU and maternity ward, for the other babies and parents in the NICU that inspire us, for the strangers that smile at us. If you look hard enough, this doesn’t have to be such a scary world after all.

I know we’ll make it through.

♥,
Jim and Saab

Saab

560 Comments

  1. Reply

    Loida Campo

    March 6, 2018

    Everything happens for a reason. There is another child who needs you. Just hold on to him. And prayers makes your wound heal. God will be guiding you and your family.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thanks, I just wish you wouldn’t dismiss my grief. You probably didn’t mean to, but sometimes a grieving mother doesn’t need people to tell her what to do.

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    Grems

    March 6, 2018

    Praying for you, Jim and your baby. I’m sure your little angel is looking out for your family. She’s his guardian angel. You’ll get through this. Stay strong, Saab. We’re always here for you.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Kcc

    March 6, 2018

    I know a lot of people may have said this, but here’s another redundant message. I am praying for you & your whole family, Saab. I cannot even imagine the pain that youre going through, but I know you’d fight thru this. You and your family are loved by people you dont even know. Stay strong. and am deeply sorry for your loss.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Jennah

    March 6, 2018

    May God bless you and your family Ms Saab!

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Evelyn Soldevilla

    March 6, 2018

    I’m sorry to hear that, ate Saab. Stay strong for your loved ones. Now i know why i’m not seeing you on twitter these past few weeks. 😢

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    RUTH TADLAS

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Saab,
    I am a silent reader of your blog and I followed you on IG.
    Your bravery is awesome and I admired it. I’ve experienced miscarriage too last September 2018.
    Yes, you are right it is really heartbreaking. But again your right, there is hope. I will continue to pray for your family, thank you for sharing your story. God Bless! Press on!

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Paola

    March 6, 2018

    I’m so sorry to hear this, Saab. Please stay strong.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Princess Aragon

    March 6, 2018

    Losing a loved one is never easy. But stay strong, be strong cause your baby boy could feel it when you’re sad or you’re weak. Things will get better, take it one day at a time. There are many people who cares for you and loves you truly. 💓

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Jessica

    March 6, 2018

    Hello Ms.Saab,

    Reading this just made me teary-eyed. I can’t imagine the pain and all. But I just admired how despite all, you and Jim remained strong. How despite all, you still chose to see the good in everything and in everyone. I believe that everything has a purpose, we may never understand it now but God will reveal it us when the time is right. Im praying for your family and that God will sustain you and fight your battles. I’m sure He will. He will never leave us nor forsake us. Better things ahead Ms.Saab! Just have faith because we have a BIG GOD! God bless you, Jim your little boy and your little angel. Sending hugs from UAE!

    Sincerely,
    Jessica

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    ajie

    March 6, 2018

    God bless you and your family, Ate Saab. You can get through this.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Ayen

    March 6, 2018

    Hello! My baby spent the first 70 days of her life at the NICU too being born at only 26 weeks of gestation. While my baby was there I also met another couple whose baby was born at only 23 weeks. Similar to you, initially they had twins but sadly the other one didn’t make it. Their baby is home with them now and thriving after about 4 months.

    Having a baby at the NICU is one hell of a roller coaster ride. One day all news will be positive, next day it may not. You’re baby will face so
    many challenges but babies are resilient and they are great fighrers even if they are so tiny. Just remember, your baby can feel your energy or whatever it is you feel. So stay positive because that’s the best help you can give him. I know it’s hard having lost your little girl but you still have a little boy fighting for his life to go home with you and I’m sure you little angel is watching over all of you now.

    It can also be a test of marriage so always pray together. This is what my husband and I did. And everytime we would go to the hospital, which was everyday, we would treat the time we spend together to talk about everything.

    And as you mentioned, you will also meet other set of parents at the NICU who will inspire you and who may even become your friends because you will be sharing your experiences. We have a Facebook group now with other parents of my baby’s batchmates at NICU so we act as if we are each other’s support group.

    I wish your family nothing but the best. Remember, you are still blessed.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Christina

    March 6, 2018

    💔 Hang in there Saab and Jim! My prayers are with you.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Janelle

    March 6, 2018

    Dear Saab,

    Our hearts are saddened by your loss and our thoughts and prayers are with you. Everything that happens has it own purpose, God knows you’ll make it through and she will be better with God and beside your Dad. I’ve been there same as you, and I know how you feel right now, don’t lose hope. He will provide. God only knows. May you find the STRENGTH to face tomorrow in the LOVE that surrounds you today.

    Janelle T.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Alta Guiking

    March 6, 2018

    Be strong Saabae! I’m literally in tears while reading this. You and your family will get through this. Trust in God’s plan. I love you and your family so much. I will be praying for you. Please please please take care always 💗😭

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Stratcolumn

    March 6, 2018

    Big hug Saab!

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Patricia Uytiepo

    March 6, 2018

    You and Jim are not alone, my husband and I together with our 2 boys had to bury our youngest last year, he was only 5 months when God decided that he needs another angel, and this time an angel to watch over our family…it will never be okay, but things will turn up…eventually, my friends who are priests once told me: ‘kausapin mo yung anak mo lagi, lalo na pag nahihirapan kang mag decide, He let go para maalagaan mo pa yung mga kuya niya…’ I too, was critical for losing so much blood, and I guess, our Matteo really let me go for his brothers…
    I also say the same to you…talk to your little angel, pray to her and for her, ask her to guide and guard her brother…Someday, you will all be together…
    Our family prays for you and jim, and for your twins too… hang tough…God Bless You and your family…

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      I’m so sorry

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    Pia Agustin

    March 6, 2018

    Praying for your family,Saab.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Karen

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Ate Saab,
    you’re my girl crush ever since i was a kid. (skl) my deepest condolences to you and your husband Kuya Jim. Baby Boy Bacarro is strong just like his parents :))) please always remember i’m (” we’re”) here for you and your family no matter what. stay strong Ate Saab ♥ Papa God and Sir Francis is with Baby Girl Bacarro up there guiding you :) xoxo

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Trisha

    March 6, 2018

    Stay strong Saab! We’ll be praying for you and your family.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Clang

    March 6, 2018

    Everything will be over Saab and Jim! I will include your family on my prayers! Your so strong enough and you can get through this with your little blessing! Godbless your family!

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Catherine Ang

    March 6, 2018

    I’m so saddened about the lost of your baby twin girl 😞 i’m also a first time mom with twins too. They’re 11 mos old now. I know how hard it is to carry them inside your womb. Its not easy… You did a great job. I pray that your twin boy will get better.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Andi

    March 6, 2018

    I am so, so, sorry for your loss.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Lendl

    March 6, 2018

    May God bless you more and you’re family. Be strong.
    “Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. There is more than enough room in my Father’s home. If this were not so, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am. And you know the way to where I am going: John 14: 1-4”

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Merlinda Little

    March 6, 2018

    I dont have words. I am a mother and I can only imagine the pain you and your husband in under at the moment. I will be thinking of you and pray for your little boy.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Ann

    March 6, 2018

    Hey, stay strong dear. Everything happens for a reason, you have another angel to watch over you. Dont stress yourself, everybody loves you. ❤

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Ella

    March 6, 2018

    I am sorry for your loss, Miss Sab and Sir Jim. Your little angel is now at peace with our Lord and our loved ones up there, and I’m sure she will be looking out for you from up there. I couldn’t imagine how you feel right now as a mother, but as a sister to a brother who also didn’t make it to his birth, I admire your strength and tenacity to keep moving forward and living for the family who are with you in this world. Sending prayers to God for you, your family, and your baby girl. 🌊xoxo

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Hans :)

    March 6, 2018

    Hello ate Saab and Kuya Jim, I’m so sorry for your lost. I’m excited about their names 👀❤️

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Pam

    March 6, 2018

    You are loved! Keep the faith! *hugs.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Phoebe

    March 6, 2018

    Prayers for you and the rest of the family. I am so sorry to hear this. God bless you

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Khreane manez

    March 6, 2018

    I am on the verge of tears reading this. :( Stay strong, Saab and Jim! You have my prayers.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Christine Ann Mendoza

    March 6, 2018

    I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through, but keep in mind that there are so many people who are praying for you and your family. I am sorry for your loss.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Sarah

    March 6, 2018

    Kaya ninyo ‘yan Ms. Saab! Stay strong and keep the faith. Sana gumaan ang loob nyo kahit mahirap. Magpakatatag po kayo. Gob bless po!

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    jinn

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Saab! I’ve been your follower for many years and yes i’m one of those who got worried when you went silent in social media. I know you and Jim will get through this, I’ll be praying for your baby boy. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. Love you! 💕

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Jemelyn Joy Bruzola

    March 6, 2018

    Be strong and courageous Saab.. God has a greater plan in our lives.. I am extending my prayers to you, your husband to your family and to your little boy..

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Geri Q. Villarin

    March 6, 2018

    We feel your grief and pray for strength.
    Blessings to you both.
    Hugs from the Villarins of NJ
    Eddie, Geri, Emma and Paolo

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    CEEJAY

    March 6, 2018

    God is still Good! Gobless saab and your family… Fighting! 😃

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Kara

    March 6, 2018

    We may not be friends. But my prayers are with you, and your family. I am whole-heartedly praying for the complete healing and fast recovery of your baby boy. I am also praying for the beautiful departed soul of your baby girl. May God continue to guide you and your family. Your baby girl turned into a beautiful angel will watch you, and protect you everyday.

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      Saab

      October 10, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    superBia

    March 6, 2018

    oh my God Saab :( I know there’s something wrong when I have not seen you post anything for the past week. I’ve always been an avid reader of your blog and of course, your fan.

    This is the first time I’m sending you a message, ever. I felt the urge because I understand what you and you’re family is going through right now. Especially you. I have lost my babies, twice, and the first was the most painful. I think because I was so young then that I couldn’t understand my anger and I have displaced it on a lot of things– even people, and I was all over the place for so many months. It took me years to accept what happened. I guess what’s hard was people didn’t give me space to mourn and my anger was not validated. The experience changed me entirely. I really hope that your loved ones will support you throughout the entire process.

    Everything that’s happening at the moment is hard, and what I just said is an understatement. Loss is unimaginable. I hope the pain eases soon. <3

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      Saab

      September 25, 2018

      Thank you :( I am so sorry for your loss and it’s comforting to know that I am not the only one frustrated by other people who seem to disrespect my family’s grief. Thank you again for your words.

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    Jude

    March 6, 2018

    My heart breaks into pieces!! 💔

    “God didn’t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, or sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.”

    Stay strong, Saab! We love you ❤️

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Anonymous cat

    March 6, 2018

    Go Saab!!! My sisters and I are praying for you and your baby girl in heaven, and for your baby boy to continue fighting. You will make it through. :)

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Mommy Mai

    March 6, 2018

    Keep the faith Saab and Jim! Sending hugs and prayers your way.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    joanna

    March 6, 2018

    I know that you don’t know me. You have my support. I’m a NICU mom also with my 2 kids. You have a lot of friends and your family to support you. In case you need a new friend who cam some what understand more of what you’re going through I’m here for you. stay strong!

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Roe

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Ate Saab! I just want you to share my favorite verse: “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

    Whenever I hear this verse it warms my heart. I hope by sharing this i can somehow mend your heart. I know that your facing difficulties today, but always trust our lord, he has better plans. You are stronger than this. You can do this. There are so many people out there that is looking for you, friends and family that loves you, fans that supports you. Inhale, exhale. I will include you, kuya jim and your baby boy to my prayers. I love you ate. Stay strong! We love you!

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Ken Zuniga

    March 6, 2018

    The world may be a sad and cruel place, but I know God will help you and your family get through the storm. I pray for the safety of your baby boy. I hope he grows as strong-willed as his parents. Best wishes to you Saab, and to your family. God Bless!!

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Nikkie

    March 6, 2018

    Be strong mommy for your baby boy. Im a preemie mom and my son is still in the NICU. I know it’s hard, I understand what you feel but keep the faith and pray hard. They say everything happens for a reason. Your little angle is now watching over your family. You can make it. We will include you and your baby in our prayers too. God speed

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Janna Rivera

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Saab and Jim,
    I was really excited for you guys when I found out that you are pregnant and carrying twins. And would always check you IG for update sre your pregnancy. Pls know that I am with you in your heartache. Really broke my heart when I read your post. Btw, God has plan for you guys. Be strong! Fright! Will pray for and your baby boy’s fast and complete healing. xx

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Nikka Manuel Sanchez

    March 6, 2018

    I will include you in my prayers tonight. I too lost my baby last August 2017, our first. All the physical pain will heal and go away but the emptiness will be hard to fill. I also ask questions, still cry myself to sleep at night up to this day and can only trust that the Lord will help me go through this. Little by little, step by step. You are a strong woman, God bless you.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you <3

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    Juli Mae Ferniz

    March 6, 2018

    I felt your sorrow and courage as a family.
    I too, got excited for you guys after I heard the preggy news months ago. I’m pretty sure the twins will be so so so cute and adorable! I knew you’d be awesome parents as you are an awesome couple. I look up to you both: married at a young age (for some ha) and always remain inlove all over again. You really are a good influence!
    All I can hope for is that may you guys continue to be brave and trust God at all times. He has his ways. He’s currently cuddling your baby girl and showering miracles to your little boy.
    GOD BLESS YOU, ATE SAAB, KUYA JIM & BABY!!!

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Abby

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Saab. I’m so sorry forr the lost of your baby girl. I am one of your followers on instagram and I was shookt when I saw your post so I checked your blog right away. I know this is very painful for you and Jim and for your family as well but I know you are a strong woman and you have a stronger God. Hold unto Him. I’ll be praying for you Ms. Saab and for your Baby Boy. Stay strong and God bless.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Armi

    March 6, 2018

    You and your family will be in my prayers Saab. Stay strong. 😊

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Jewell Manabat

    March 6, 2018

    Sending love and prayers, Saab and Jim.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Eina Bautista

    March 6, 2018

    No words can express how sorry I am to hear about your daughter. I know how much you love her and i know that it’s the same love that will carry you through the darkest and most difficult days. I will continue to pray for you and your family.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Myles

    March 6, 2018

    There are no words, Saab.
    Perhaps we can find comfort knowing that your little girl is with God now.
    My heart goes out to you and your little boy who is fighting.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Jen

    March 6, 2018

    I’m crying buckets of tears. 😭😭😭 I can only imagine how heartbreaking this is for you and Jim. Though we might not understand why devastating things like this happens to us, we can rest assured that God is always with us. And He is good. All the time. I will be praying for you and your baby boy. Be strong. Keep faith. ❤

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    LittleNugget

    March 6, 2018

    Hi, im a young mom of an 8 month old boy. My heart crushed when i read this. I feel how hurt and pained you are. But stay strong! God’s will is always better than ours. Have faith. Heaven just gained a beautiful angel.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    kim

    March 6, 2018

    Dear Saab and Jim,

    I’m praying for you and your family. Hang in there.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Nathalie

    March 6, 2018

    As a fellow mom, I can’t imagine the pain of what you went through.. please let me extend my sincerest condolences to you and your family.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Connyaaang

    March 6, 2018

    I am so heart broken right now. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through. Be strong, Jim and Saab.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Romalyn

    March 6, 2018

    Stay strong Ate Saab! She is now an Angel. God bless you and I’ll pray for your healing and pain. Mwaah

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Junel Lyn Manalang

    March 6, 2018

    Stay strong Miss Saab, alam ko pinagdaraan mo, pinagdaanan n namin magAsawa yan, 65days ang pagStay ng baby ko sa Nicu, totoong hindi madali, pero lahat madadaan sa prayers, preemie babies are strong and fighter. ❤👶 Godbless.

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Mina

    March 6, 2018

    I am heartbroken and just reading this, my heart bleeds for you. Sending my prayers and I know you’ll get through this.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Zelai

    March 6, 2018

    Saab, I am so so sorry for your loss. Been an avid follower and has always been excited on all your endeavors. I was so happy for your pregnancy and this totally breaks my heart. Its like 2009 all over again ;(

    I sincerely hope for your recovery and also for the health of your baby boy. Be strong for him. I know its so easy to say but you can do it. I know you will. God bless you and your family.

    -Zelai

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Tina

    March 6, 2018

    my heart goes to your and your family. You are in my prayers.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Junel Lyn Manalang

    March 6, 2018

    Then noong 3½ mos na sya, nagUndergo sya sa isang operations, 2weeks ulit un ICU, sobrang, hirap at masakit makita sa ganun lagay ang babies, but ang inisip ko na lang kailangan nya yun pra mabuhay, mdlas nacconfine pa rin sya ,til nag one year old na sya, God is good.
    We as a preemie parents are lucky to witness such miracles thru our babies. Stay positive, he can make it. He will be home soon. 👶❤

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Daisquared

    March 6, 2018

    So sorry for your loss. hugsss

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Arra

    March 6, 2018

    Hello, Saab! Praying for you and your family. Stay strong and keep the faith.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Chesca B

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Saab! If you happen to need breast milk donations, I can share some for your little fighter. Prayers for you and your family. Stay strong!

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you for offering!! Thankfully, I’ve been able to produce a lot :)

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    Kat del Rosario

    March 6, 2018

    Thanks for sharing this heartbreaking yet hopeful post. I’m sorry for your loss 💔 I cannot imagine what you went through. But I thank God for giving you strength and hope. And I pray He continues to do so. Praying for your family, Saab! I know your little angel will always be there with you. Love you guys for inspiring us readers/followers! I rarely comment but I just wanted to reach out.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Dee

    March 6, 2018

    My deepest condolences. Kapit lang kayo ni Jim for your baby boy. You have your guardian angel now. Hugs!

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jakii Moon

    March 6, 2018

    Hi there Saab and Jim, I am a fan of yours who finds/gets courage, inspiration and all to you both. I want to emphatize with you and let you know that your babies are happy with you and Jim being there parents, you have and still are doing everything, being and giving the world for them. God gives us miracles and blessings in so many ways, and even through the hardest times there is a light waiting to relieve us…

    I don’t know much of how you both feel now, but I know it’s definitely tough and I can only send some virtual hugs and include your loved ones into our prayers. I do pray that you, Jim and everyone will have the strength and peace in our hearts despite the tough rides we have in life. You guys are so strong and loving. Godbless and keep going💖

    p.s thank you for sharing your moments this truly isnt easy to just type and share.. we’re all here for you and your family

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Trisha Joy Cuizon

    March 6, 2018

    Stay strong and have faith. God bless you and your family ❤️

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Damasus Daniel Calixto

    March 6, 2018

    My heart is crying while reading this. Yet I admire your courage to publish this. I know this was not easy for you. So, thank you so much for sharing.

    I am not good in words but one thing I am sure of, that God is good. That everything happens for a reason. All the more we go back to God, for we are sure that He will give us comfort and peace. I am praying for your whole family. I can’t wait for God to reveal His purpose for you and to the day that you will look back again to this day, how God uses this situation to make you even stronger, wiser, even more loving and caring than you are.

    I admire your strength and your grateful heart. You are not alone in your season. Ypu have a blessed family and friends to support you. Thank you for always inspiring us.

    2 Corinthians 12:9
    But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you! <3

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    Sam

    March 6, 2018

    Stay strong Saab and Baby boy!! Keep on fighting 💕💕

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    MYMY

    March 6, 2018

    This brought tears into my eyes. I’m not sure it will mean anything, but I want you to know that I will include you and your little angel in my prayers tonight. Virtual hugs! God loves you

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      It means a lot. Thank you!

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    April

    March 6, 2018

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I know you and Jim will get through this. Be strong. Praying for your family! ♡

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Ann Aguila

    March 6, 2018

    Hi saab… Can’t help but to write a comment on this. I was too. A mother of angels… I got pregnant with quadruplets last may 2016 and unfortunately at 26 weeks and 6 days nanganak nako. All of them born alive. I was so happy but scared because I know sobrang aga pa to deliver. Sadly, my first baby boy died a day after I gave birth, my second baby girl died a week after. Then my 3rd baby girl died after a month and it was on my bday. We only had our little boy fighting but 3 months after he also died. It was so hard to see my babies going thru a lot of pain. Kaya napa comment ako dito because i know how hard it is to go through this… I admire your faith. Until now, I can’t still believe that it happened. And until now hindi ko pdin naiintindigan kung bakit nangyari yun. But i know god loves them so much kaya ang aga nila naging angels. may god comfort you in this time of sorrow. Sorry for the comment. Nasad lang ako. I remember kase when i was with the same situation.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      I’m very sorry to hear you lost all 4 babies :((( This makes me cry. I’m so sorry.

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    Enna's Mama

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Sabb..

    Hugs to you. I know what you are going through. Last July 24, I lost my precious daughter too to a virus that I believe is still unknown to medicine as of the moment. She’s 5 yo and turning 6 on April 5.

    All I can say is not to ask anything negative to yourself when you are alone. Just ask, what was that good thing you have done to deserve to be loved by an angel.

    You are so strong to get this through. Some people might not understand what exactly your feelings and may say something that will not really help the situation but you will make it through. We will make it through. I too just look back at our happy memories together and just keeping Enna’s memoies alive.

    I pray for you and I pray for all the grieving moms in the world.

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Hello, I am so sorry you lost your baby Enna. That is heartbreaking :(( Thank you for your prayers. God bless you.

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    Monique

    March 6, 2018

    This is the saddest blog i’ve ever read so far. I feel the loneliness that you’re going through right now ate. I always looking at your instagram if you already updated about your pregnancy ate. I know you can overcome everything ate and kuya jim. Just keep praying and never forget that God is always at our side. I know there’s a reason why he needs to take one from your twins. Your baby girl will now be your guardian angel ate. You can do this ate and kuya! And I will keep praying for your baby boy so he can go out now from the hospital and having a super healthy body. Love you ate!!

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      Saab

      July 12, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Janine

    March 6, 2018

    Saab you are my hero ever since I can remember, you’re a fighter, I know you can get through all of what’s happening. I am praying for your family and for all the strength you need to overcome this stage of your life. God never sleeps.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Tsikiboom

    March 6, 2018

    Hugs. ❤️

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    kinterbell

    March 6, 2018

    Saabie, you got this. God is with you. I am praying for you ☝🏼

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Abby

    March 6, 2018

    Sending lots of prayers for you and your husband. I know this time is tough especially to you both. I know how it feels, I was in your situation 2 yrs ago. Until now I still feel the pain. It hurts every time you think about losing an angel on earth, but this time heaven gain an angel to watch over you. ❤️

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      I’m very sorry that you went through something similar. Thank you!

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    April F.

    March 6, 2018

    My deepest and sincerest condolences to you and your husband. I truly hope that you get through this dark times.
    I cannot imagine what you are going through. Here’s a prayer for you and your husband.

    “Dear Lord,

    Please wrap your arms around those who are hurting today, and let them feel You love them

    Amen”

    Sincerely,
    April F.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    bdalcantara

    March 6, 2018

    Praying for you ❤

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    S.

    March 6, 2018

    Hi Saab,

    I’m really sorry for your loss, I could not imagine what you’re going thru right now – I pray that you and Jim find so much strength in this trying times – I pray for your little boy too – his twin sister is looking after him along with their lolo (Francis M). I admire you looking into the bright side in this situation – I love you and will always pray for your beautiful family. xo

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Kalmia Irupang

    March 6, 2018

    Praying for your family Ms. SAAB Especially to your baby boy. God is good all the time kaya kapit ka lang and pray. I just want to share this. I gave birth last Nov.and nag 50/50 din yung baby ko nilabas sya ng my pneumonia.on the 4th day ko na sya nkita dahil nasa NICU din siya at my mga nakakabit na aparatus sakanya. Pinanghinaan ako ng loob pero sabi ng isang nurse sakin na ilan years na ngtatrabaho sa ospital na wag dapat panghinaan kasi sa atin din sila kumukuha ka ng lakas thru prayers. Kaya paka tatag ka at magpalakas. Malalagpasan yan ni baby boy mo. Tawagin mo siyang little warrior. Sigurado hindi na rin siya papabayaan ng twin niya at ni sir kiko. . . hindi ko man alam kung ganu kabigat ang pinag dadaanan mo, magpaka tatag ka para sa mga taong andito pa at lumalaban pa para mubuhay. Condolence po ulit😢

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Joyce Lauren Lavapie

    March 6, 2018

    Love you, Saab! Will pray for you and gour family! Huuug.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Pennylane

    March 6, 2018

    Stay strong! God bless you and your baby boy.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Alexis

    March 6, 2018

    I’m crying :( I can’t imagine what both of you are going through. Will pray you and your son’s health and safety. God bless your family 💖

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Ida

    March 6, 2018

    Praying for you And the babies. I was a NICU mom too. Hang in there! God is good And merciful ⭐️

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Sam Dioneda

    March 6, 2018

    My deepest condolences for your baby girl. I was so excited when I knew you were having twins.. but this happened. Please stay strong. I wish, hope and pray that baby boy will stay strong as well. For himself and for her sister.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Kathleen

    March 7, 2018

    I am praying for you, Saab. You will get through this. I believe in you.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Russel Nicole

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab,

    I’ve been a follower of yours because you are such an inspiration. Even got excited for your twins when you spill out the good news. I got curious about your IG post and can’t explain why but I got nervous that there’s something. And here I read your blog. Sayang pero everything has its reasons. Siguro nga it’s painful pero always look at the bright side. And yes your baby girl is one heck of a hero. She saves both you and his brother. Now she’s with God na. I pray for your recovery and for your baby boy. Never lose faith and hope. You still have the most beautiful family ever.

    😊

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jenilyn

    March 7, 2018

    Hi. Yes, I’m a stranger but we’re almost the same. A mother who lost a child. I lost 2 babies and still I don’t have kid with me. I felt like life is unfair. Why do I have to experienced such things not just once but twice. I should have a baby boy and a girl. But they were all angels now. All things happen for a reason. It was really the way why I walked with God. It strengthen my faith and understand why these things happen. If I have my kid at that time, I wouldn’t search for God. God will fill your empty heart the moment He will call you. Jesus is always with us. You really have to trust in His plans. You’re blessed as you still have your baby boy right now. I hope, this will serve as a calling that you should seek for God more. Godbless and God loves you. Just have faith.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      I am so sorry that happened to you :( Thank you for sharing.

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    Gian Ignacio

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab. I just can’t help myself but to send you a message. I just want to tell you that God has plans for you and your family. And always be strong esp now. Your baby boy needs you. Be strong for him. I can’t say that I know how you feel bec i was not placed in the same position as yours, but by just reading your blog, it really breaks my heart. Just be strong for your little boy. He will get better. Sending love and prayers for you and your family. May God guide you always.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Gretch

    March 7, 2018

    Just pray alweys Saab.. Im a mother of twins as well. 2 boys turning 6 na din sila.. Had them premature. 8months.. NDS..hope and pray for your baby boy… And ur little angel..😍… In God’s perfect time.. Malay mo triplets na… Getwell soon and pray alweys. Have strong faith in Him. Regards to your hubby..😚

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Cherry Ann Reyes

    March 7, 2018

    Condolence Saab..no words can ease the pain you are feeling right now..May God continue to heal you and your baby boy..be strong

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Mela

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for you saab and your family. I am mother of two boys and I can’t imagine what you’ve been going through. Stay strong. My kids and I will pray for you and your little angels.

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      Saab

      July 10, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Richelle Sison

    March 7, 2018

    Dear Saab & Jim. I hope you remain strong and continue to have faith in Him despite going through this difficult time. My husband and I went through almost the same ordeal last year, when I had preterm birth, and eventually lost our son. This is something no parent should go through, and it still hurts until now, but He has plans for everything. I’m sorry for your loss, and hope your son continues to fight. God bless you both, and you’ll get through this together.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Sorry you also went through something this horrible :( Thank you.

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    Dan

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong, Saab. Your baby boy is strong like his parents and will live a life full of love and hope. Please hold on 🙏

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Shekinah Bongco

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab. I do not know you personally, but I’ve been in love with you and your beautiful family ever since. I’m so sorry to hear this. I will be praying for you and your family. May God comfort you and be with you in this season and the next. Praying for your baby boy as well. May he be safe. God bless you, Saab.

    Love,
    Shekinah.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Cawi

    March 7, 2018

    Be strong Saab and Jim 😢 Praying for your whole family ❤

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Mary Angela Sajona

    March 7, 2018

    Saab and Jim, I am sorry to hear about your loss. I can’t imagine what you must be going through right now. God is good. Keep praying. Be strong. Your baby boy is fighting, and you are loved by your families. You have their support, 100 percent! Praying for your continuous strength!

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Cesiah G.

    March 7, 2018

    So sorry for your loss Saab and Jim. May God’s comfort be upon you and the whole fam. Nothing is impossible with God. Your little boy will get better very soon. Just hold on to God’s word 1 Corinthians 10:13 “The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.”

    God bless!

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Louise

    March 7, 2018

    Sorry for your loss. 😔 Sending some love and light to both of you. I know you two will get through this with the help of everyone who loves you. Hoping for the best for your baby boy. ❤

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Emil

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab!
    Stay strong! I included you and your fam in my prayers.
    You’ve always inspired me. ♥️ #hopeplusfaith

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Leah

    March 7, 2018

    Praying 🙏

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Shengkuela

    March 7, 2018

    Get well soon Saaby. I pray for your fast recovery and the baby boy. Baby girl is such a hero. We love you! – Shengkuela

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Krisha Nandwani

    March 7, 2018

    Such a touching story. Goodluck dear.. God has his plans for us.. we just have to trust his will. ❤

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Yshi

    March 7, 2018

    I am so sorry for your loss, Jim and Saab. I heard about this heartbreaking news 3 days after u were in the ICU. I wanted to reach out to you by sending u a message on instagram but i didnt think it was appropriate as this is such a personal matter and I know you are in pain. Instead of messaging you, I just prayed. For you, your little angel and your baby boy. We may have never met in person and I have always been a silent reader of yours for years but know that you and your family are always included in my prayers. I wish there was more that I can do to help. Jim and Saab, you will get through this. But you dont have to feel the need to hurry your grief. My prayers are with your family.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Wow, this just proves there is no such thing as doctor-patient confidentiality. But thank you for your prayers.

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    Dana P

    March 7, 2018

    Hello I may be a stranger to you but god knows I’ve been in your situation.. there are no words to make you feel better and no medicine to cure it. As parents you will got used to the pain and carry on make life better for someone. Time will be your cure and you baby boy will be your sunshine. The pain will never go away but remember god has plans. Embrace each other

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Eloiza Driz

    March 7, 2018

    I just want to hug you, but all I can do is offer you a prayer. ❤

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Ann

    March 7, 2018

    I am praying for your Family. You are an inspiration for all, Godbless your little angel. She’s in good hands now. Your baby boy will survive. In Jesus name ❤️ Hugs.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Roch

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab and Jim,
    i just read your blog post today and I’m sad that you lost your baby girl. I hope you are doing fine. Just remember that everything happens for a reason, and that your angel is now watching and guiding you, together with your Papa. I sincerely hope that you get better soon, as well as your baby boy. Be strong, Saab and Jim! 😘

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Van Cornel

    March 7, 2018

    When I saw the post in IG. I was hoping it wasnt related to your babies…but I was wrong. I am really sorry to hear what happened. I am praying for your family. be strong as God has better plans for your family.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Ven

    March 7, 2018

    This is so heartbreaking. You’ll get through this. 💗

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Gladz

    March 7, 2018

    Hi saab! I have been in your situation not so long ago. I had actually triplets babies, 1 didnt make it when he was obly 8weeks old, then the other one was aborted at 16weeks. I had to make a choice and leave my career behind to give way for the remaining baby fighting for her life. I had been in bed for the last 5 months until i delivered my term baby 2 days ago. Ive never felt pain and disappointment in my whole life until i experienced such. Good thing i was surrounded with good people and a very supportive husband that kept me going. Be strong for your little one. He needs you more than anyone else. And to your husband, be strong for your wife and baby. They need you at this moment. You are their shoulder to lean on. I know it hard but you have to keep going. Praying is powerful. Im praying for your family. Please be safe always.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      I’m so sorry you experienced this. Thank you!

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    Leigh Dizon

    March 7, 2018

    One tap on the back…virtual hug (tight) You can make it through…God is with you. As He said on His promises, He will never leave us nor forsake us. I know talk is cheap but always remember God has His own pace and timing and purpose. Thank you for inspiring the David in us, for you have fought the Goliath of life… I will be praying for you and your family. May God continue to be with you and carry you with His loving arms.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Faith

    March 7, 2018

    Jim and Saab, God never tests us beyond our level of endurance. He is faithful to see us through each hardship and to bless us richly when our trial is through. The night times of our life may seem dismal and black, but there is always a glorious morning on the rise.
    James 1:12 “God will bless you, if you don’t give up when your faith is being tested. He will reward you with a glorious life, just as he rewards everyone who loves him.”

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Katherine

    March 7, 2018

    I was going through some quotes in IG, looking for inspiring quotes or quotes that relate to my experience or feelings when I saw your post. I just lost my baby boy last month. He is already 34weeks, when we got the horible news that his heart stopped beating. It was heartbreaking and until now, my heart is still being torn into pieces. I know how you feel. I wish I can say comforting words to ease your pain, but I too have been having a hard time looking for things that will comfort me. At the moment, it’s my daughter and husband that keeps me going. And it helps me pour out my grief whenever I write to my son. Why don’t you write something for her? Send her letter telling her how much you miss her. How much you love her, or how much in pain you are. Express your grief through writing. It helped me. My son might not answer my letters but it helped me in expressing my grief. My prayers are with you and your family, specially your little boy. It is going to be hard, but hope will keep you going. God bless you.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      I’m so sorry :(

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    Joyce

    March 7, 2018

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Jim and Saab.

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    meryl

    March 7, 2018

    i am heartbroken too by this news… :( but i cannot imagine what both of you are feeling right now. i have been a fan since day one and have been looking forward to your twins. i hope and pray that He will bless, heal and nurture your family through all of this, and will also be praying for your baby boy to get stronger each day.

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    @mary22gold

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong and keep the faith!

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Camille

    March 7, 2018

    All my undying love and support to you and your beautiful family, Saab!!

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Camille Dayrit

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for you and your little one. Stay strong and keep the faith! Your little girl is sitting on God’s lap looking after you. God Bless!

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Nikki T.

    March 7, 2018

    I am at a loss for words, and am crying inside the cab as I read this post. How i wish i could give some sort of comfort. It may sound cliché, but indeed the heaven gained another angel. May she rest in peace , and I am praying for you, Jim, and your baby boy.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    malou

    March 7, 2018

    hi saab, i don’t know you personally, but know that I feel your pain and I will keep you in my prayers. I also had a miscarriage recently and I know how difficult this can be. know that the lord will pull you out of this, victorious and stronger than ever. *hugs*

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you and I’m sorry to hear about your miscarriage

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    MRS. B

    March 7, 2018

    Be strong. You may not understand everything today, but I believe that our Father God have a reason why this is happening. May the good Lord embrace you, your hubby and your baby boy at this trying time. And may your angel in heaven guide you everyday. God bless you.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Erika

    March 7, 2018

    I can’t fight my tears ate saab. I’ve always been checking your ig account for your posts especially when it is about your twins. Because to be honest I’ve been dreaming to have my twins too in the future. I wanted to see how beautiful your babies will be looking just like you and kuya jim. I’m heartbroken about your baby girl but I pray and hope your baby boy will continue to fight for his life for the both of you. You two have been a fighter and will be a great parents. Your family will make it. Love you.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Reishh

    March 7, 2018

    You can make it Saab! God is good all the time.. i will pray for your fast recovery and for baby boy. Be strong! God bless you

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Rosemarie

    March 7, 2018

    You and your family are in my prayers. There is no overcoming the lost as tragic as this. There is no going back to the way things were. But there is hope. Hope not to forget what happened but hope to wake up each day with purpose. I share your pain as someone who has experienced something similar. You may be overwhelmed by so many messages but if you need someone to talk to who has gone through something similar please reach out.

    With much hope,
    Rosemarie

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      I’m sorry to hear that you went through something tragic as well. Thank you for reaching out!

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    c

    March 7, 2018

    Jim & Saab,
    I can’t imagine the pain both of you are going through. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I will include your family in my prayers. Please continue to stay strong and know that there are many of us, your supporters, as well as your family and friends that are here for you guys. Congratulations on your baby boy, he is very lucky to have such strong and loving parents like both of you. Truly the Lord, as well as your papa, will be taking care of your baby girl in heaven. I know she will be watching over her parents and brother. Take as much time off as you need, celebrate your son as well as your angel. Your fans/readers like myself will always be here, sending love for you guys <3

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you so much I don’t know why I am tearing up with your comment. I think it’s the first time I’ve come across one that says “take as much time off as you need.” Thank you for understanding. Thank you so much.

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    BangBang

    March 7, 2018

    Prayers for you and your family. Keep strong, your whole fanbase is here for you and Jim.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Chealtia Andreia

    March 7, 2018

    Hello, Ate Saab. I’ve just read your blog and this is so tragic. I may not be a parent yet I felt what you were feeling here. I’m sorry she had to leave you behind. I’m truly sorry for she had to sacrifice her own life.

    But I can say she was a brave, brave, beautiful baby girl. You are blessed that kahit papaano, nagkaroon ka ng ganoong baby.

    God loves you more than anything. ☺

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Eva

    March 7, 2018

    twinkle twinkle little star
    up in heaven is where you are
    little angel keep looking after
    your twin brother
    mother
    and father

    ❤️

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Marithel

    March 7, 2018

    I lost my son 23 years ago, too., born at 32 weeks and up to now it is still painful. Just take one day at a time. God will heal you and your husband. I will pray for your son and you and your husband. Stay strong in your faith.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you and I’m very sorry for your loss

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    Jessica Delfino

    March 7, 2018

    It totally breaks my heart. 😢😢😢

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    Blenda Magat

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Ms. Saab,
    Stay strong.. it will be months or years before you move on but life has to go on.. take it easy. Don’t stay at home alone coz u will tend to just cry.. been to this stage when i gave birth to my youngest.10 years ago, I have to be opened even if im only 7mos.preggy.(they had to give me a shot for the lungs of the baby kasi nga 7mos pa lang bago ako ma-cs) but prior to that, i was in and out of the hospital becoz they found out that the baby is flacenta previa then another ultrasound said that the baby has fetal hydrops..we have no choice, we have to follow the doctor’s advise to have an emergency cs otherwise, my life would be at risk..madami na tubig and it will go up to my lungs…after a month of various tests, i gave birth..but my son only live for 3 days..he was in the NICU, i could see that his appearance is most likely to live, kasi mahaba..mukhang full term..unlike the other babies na maliit at malnourished..but i was wrong! I really can’t accept it. I almost fainted. Me, being a strong woman never thought i would be such a weak after having experienced it.. masakit, matagal makalimutan..
    Dagdag pa, in less than a month of what has happened, my dad passed away.. tama si Mr. Jim, hindi pang tao kung iisipin kasi sobra-sobra..ang sakit-sakit…but there is our God. He is always there for us.. keep the faith and keep hoping..
    Salamat for taking time to read this. I hope that you will cope up soon. Praying for our angels and for you and your son to recover really soon.

    Btw, this is my first time to write/comment for a blog..i just can relate.. :)
    Take Care.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you and I’m very sorry for your loss :(

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    Lorz

    March 7, 2018

    So sad to hear what happened, praying for your baby boy. Hope everything goes well. <3 **hugs**

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Madel

    March 7, 2018

    Saab,

    I’m sorry for what happened. I am sending you this message to let you know that you are not alone. My twins are with God when they were 16 6/7 weeks, which was two months ago . I understand how heartbroken you and your husband are. Please know that I am praying for you and your son.

    Love,
    Madel

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      I’m so sorry for your loss :(( Thank you and may God bless you and your twins.

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    Marie

    March 7, 2018

    Be strong Saab. Been through that same situation 3 years ago. Hold on and faith to God he will never ever leave you and your family. Your baby is a fighter he will make with flying colors. All my prayers are with you. God is good all the time.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss :(

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    KAREN

    March 7, 2018

    Prayers for your little boy Saab. I know it was not easy but just hold on, always remember that GOD didn’t gave us problem we cannot solve on our own. May GOD bless you and your family. Always take care of your health because your baby boy needs you so much right now.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Kai

    March 7, 2018

    It breaks my heart, literally. 💔 Godbless you and your family. Please stay strong for your baby boy. I know that your lil girl is now happy with the Lord. Prayers for her. 🌻

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Pye Creedon

    March 7, 2018

    To my dear niece Saab and my nephew Jim who I have yet to meet,

    I can only imagine the heartache, the pain and the sorrow you are going through right now. But, as you already had mentioned, there is still much you can be grateful and thankful for. Be strong for your son, I know that’s what your dad would want you to do.

    I’m praying for your rainbow which I know is coming soon and I’ll be praying for your little boy. 🙏 What is his name?
    Keep your faith strong and remember that, although I have not been around much in your life, I will always love and support you & your family. ❤️ Come and visit with me sometime.

    Always, Tita Pye

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you, Tita Pye <3

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    Charmaine

    March 7, 2018

    Please stay strong for your baby boy. I know how difficult this is for the both of you. I’ve been through the same ordeal July last year and I still mourn over her loss. First child, lost, just weeks before her due date. Just like you, I wanted to be angry and blame other people for a life that was lost but think of it this way- our little angel is just too pure for this world she doesn’t deserve any evil so He chose to take her with Him.

    That thought somehow helped me cope. Coping but not forgetting- you will always remember your little angel. I will pray for your family. Your little boy needs you- honor your angel by showering her brother with all the love and care he needs now.

    God bless you and your family.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you and I’m so so sorry that happened to you :(

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    jeanne

    March 7, 2018

    oh saab.. please know we are thinking of you and jim. and your baby girl, and praying for your baby boy… lots of hugs.

    *cant say much. im a mom myself so i know no words can make you feel better about this. just letting you know that we are crying with you as well. Godbless.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Gio

    March 7, 2018

    I don’t know what to say. I feel so heartbroken. I have been so worried about you these past weeks because I’m super keen about your pregnancy progress. I too am pregnant. Maybe 2 months after your ultrasound post on IG. I’m 25 years old, having a baby girl. My husband knows how much I love you and how I look up to you. My mom’s birthday was yesterday. Francis M.’s day and she is his number 1 fan. I can only imagine how hard this was for you and Jim and you and your baby boy will make it and you will be okay. You are sorrounded by family, friends and fans who loves you so much. I for one loves you so much! Your family continous to inspire a lot of people and for me, you’re an actual blessing. I have in fact learned so much from you. You will be ok. I will have my family come together in a prayer for your family and for your little angel. I love you, Saab. Be strong.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you! I hope your pregnancy and birth go well <3

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    arianne trisha ceniza

    March 7, 2018

    my prayers are with you. Continue to be strong saab and jim. All shall be well in God’s grace and time. Tc

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Cley

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab and Jim,

    God just impressed to me to comment here an encouragement. Yes, I may not know exactly how both of you feel right now trying to cope up with your recent loss. But know that God who is the author of the love story you both share is also the God who is carrying your little angel, your baby girl, right now. It would have been nice to see them grow in your arms, but maybe, just maybe, God knows it would be best to let you carry one for now and He’ll take care of the other.

    You are both loved. May God always be the hope of your hearts! Much love! ♡

    P.S. Please keep inspiring the hopeless! The way you write is such a food for the soul.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    POLA

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for you and your baby boy. I’m sure that your baby girl is now an angel and she’s watching over you. Stay strong. I know you can do this! 💞

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Abbie Lopez

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab,

    I hope you and Jim will be okay in due time. I’ve been waiting for your twins since you announced them. You’re now a mom of an angel and for sure she’s with your pops now.
    Condolence Saab and be strong. I’ll be praying for you, Jim and your baby boy.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jaja

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for you and your fam. God Bless! 💕

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

  153. Reply

    R

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for u and ur family saab.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Christian Jane Tiu

    March 7, 2018

    I literally cried. Be strong Saab. I almost lost my little boy before when I had intermittent contractions when I was 7 months pregnant. I was too scared of losing him and even got to the point of putting the blame to myself. But God showed miracles, after intensive monitoring and medications, he made it till term. He is now 6 years old and everytime I see him sleeping in the morning, I am reminded of how blessed I am.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you! Happy your baby is doing great <3

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    A

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong. You did not loose a baby girl, rather gained an angel. Sending prayers to you both

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Yes I did lose a baby girl but thank you for your prayers.

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    Kai

    March 7, 2018

    Saab & Jim, praying for the both of you, for your baby boy and your little angel in heaven. I am deeply saddened bout this news, but I know that God had better plans for your growing family. Keep trusting His will and His plans for you. We are here for you. *YAKAP*

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Regina

    March 7, 2018

    Ms. Saab! Condolences po and I’m so sorry for your loss. I was wondering about updates po and I saw your post. :( I’m so sorry po. Stay strong po and you have one more angel looking out for you po. Much love to you and your family po.

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Candric

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong ate!!! Let’s pray for your baby boy 😊 I know it’s hard as i though but she’s with your dad. Take care! God bless 💕 (Don’t lose hope)

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Cherry

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong and keep your faith to God! 🙏

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      Saab

      July 6, 2018

      Thank you!

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    mommylhyn

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong Saab 😘 for your baby boy.. Keep praying lng anjan lng sya palagi

    Jesus please be with Saab bless her baby boy .. 🙏🙏

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Francesca M.

    March 7, 2018

    Hi ate Saab. I know that there is nothing I can say to make this feel any better… but I know that God has a plan for everything. As I write this, I can’t help but cry because of all the pain you must be feeling. But knowing Him, I know that your beautiful little girl is happy and at peace. From now on, you will always have a little angel watching you wherever you go. I will keep your familly in my prayers. Keep strong for your little boy, and everything will be alright. There are so many people that love you and kuya Jim, and we will all be right here. We will be right here. 💛

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Anne Billo

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for you and your baby. May angel ka na din sa taas na magaalaga at titingin sainyong pamilya. Kayang kaya mo yan. And we will be praying for you and your baby Ms.Saab 😇😇

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    ninzkie

    March 7, 2018

    God Loves you and He loves you more each day. we can’t take away all the pain but here’s our virtual hugs for you and your little family..God loves you guys just keep the faith and He will make you guys stronger as a family..time will heal all those sad memories but God will wash them in His time..Baby girl is an angel and im sure Sir Francis will take care of her up there..He will make sure that she will grow like you..hugs saab!! we are with you😘

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Elisse

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab – thank you for the courage to write this very personal post. I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter and to read this devastating news. While your son is improving, and I am sure you are being so strong for him, I can’t imagine how difficult it is to hold both joy with your son’s presence of Life and grief at your loss. I am glad that you have a supportive network of faith, family and friends, and am sending you healing prayers during this time in your life. You are mama to both an angel baby girl who you will meet again, and a baby boy whose life you are entrusted to guide here on earth. May God continue to bless you and your family!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      It’s been such a weird rollercoaster of emotions. Thank you!

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    keren keziah gicalde

    March 7, 2018

    Be strong, Saab. I lost a baby too and I can totally relate with the pain you are going through right now. Reading your blogs makes me breakdown in tears again. Everything flashes back so clear. I wish I could hug you right now. Praying for you and your family.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss :(

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    aykieh

    March 7, 2018

    ….ma’am saab be strong poh ❤mgpakatatag ka lang poh … pra sa baby boy mo..hnd ka pababayaan ni papa god i love you poh

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jimaima M. Parohinog

    March 7, 2018

    Matthew 21:22
    Ms. Saab. Whenever we are trouble, God is with us making our spirit strong . We will pray for your babies. Be strong. Be faithful. You can do it at alam ko yan.. Kayang kaya Ms. Saab. You are a strong woman.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    KT

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab and Jim. My heart goes out to both of you as you go through all these, no words can suffice for how you are feeling. My husband and I have been through a similar situation when our youngest, a boy who is now 28 months old and thriving, was born. We were unprepared for what came after he was diagnosed with CHD at 2 days old. Our perspective in life changed. But we put our trust and kept our faith in Him… nothing is impossible with God. Keep the faith, you will make it through — our prayers especially for your little warrior on his fast recovery.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you and happy to hear your baby is doing well!

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    Given Formanes

    March 7, 2018

    Be strong, Good soul. For the Lord has plans and His thoughts are higher than our. ♥️ God bless you and your family.

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jeanne

    March 7, 2018

    Hey there Ate Saab! Your little angel is already safe from all the troubles. She’s in good hands now alongside your dad. Praying for your recovery and for your baby boy. 💖

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Harriette

    March 7, 2018

    So sorry Saab. I hope your baby makes it, strong and beautiful to face the world.

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Maymay

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab! I follow you on twitter and have always admired you for being authentic. Praying for your angel, for your baby boy and for his amazing, inspiring parents. Thank you for sharing love and hope despite what you are going through. I pray for God’s grace for you and your family in this difficult time.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Bea

    March 7, 2018

    I feel for you Saab. Praying for you everyday. Only the Lord knows why these things are happening, but He always has a purpose. Someday, it will unfold in one way or another. But for now, I pray you and Jim would find comfort in His love and promises. Praying for your son in the NICU too. It will be a victorious battle, and I am claiming it by faith as well!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    verymary

    March 7, 2018

    You’ll get this through! virtual hugs!!! god bless!!!

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Glaiza Ventanilla

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for your baby boy’s faster recovery. Always fighting!

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Norielle Baguios

    March 7, 2018

    I’m praying for you Ms. Saab. You and Jim can make it through. ❤

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Cat

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab, my baby was also premature when i gave birth to him. He was 8 mos when i had an emergency CS bec it was found that he had fluid in both his lungs and stomach. Doctor’s prognosis was not promising but his pedia tried everything to cure him.
    Preemies are really the strongest human beings for little by little he improved and we were released after a month. He is now a healthy and cheerful boy without any trace of what he went through, save for 2 pockmarks on both his sides from his surgery…a warrior’s battle scars.

    My heart bleeds from the despair you are going through…it is in these times that simple acts of kindness and hope is greatly appreciated. Doctors and nicu nurses are really angels in disguise. They help us go through the ordeal. God ultimately gives us strength and the thought of not giving up is hard but should be constant. You are blessed with the best of both worlds: your boy, a born fighter who has fought and survived one of the hardest and life threatening battles anyone could go through…and your little girl, an angel who would always guide and protect your family.

    Your spouse is also a great source of strength … You’d surprised as to how strong your spouse is at life’s darkest hours.
    A family would always come out stronger when they are able to overcome something like this. I know you and your husband can make it too. I will be praying for you, your family and for the recovery of your baby boy. Don’t worry, this too shall pass and there would always be happy days ahead.❤

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you very much!!

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    Haze

    March 7, 2018

    I am one of your silent reader saab! As i heard the news, i cried. I was one of the people who’s excited to see the twins. But pls be reminded always na God is good. This is one of his trials sayo and for Jim. Continue to pray. Just think that you have now little Angel. I will also pray for you for your recovery and to your little one. God bless you and your family! 🙏

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Ayah Mae Guerrero

    March 7, 2018

    You’ll get through this. God has plan for you and your babies. Godbless. #keepthefaith

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Katrina

    March 7, 2018

    Hi Saab, I am one of your followers in Instagram, i know the feeling of loosing someone, i would like to share my story. I know it’s nothing compares to what you and your husband is going through but I can surely relate on how you feel right now. I was pregnant last April 2016, my husband & I was very happy and excited to the point that my husband cried after knowing i was pregnant (which was unexpected). Then after 2 months we found out that our baby doesn’t have any heartbeat and they had to perform a DNC on me. We were very heart broken & I couldn’t help blaming myself for what had happened & even if its just 2 months in my belly i feel the pain of loss. I was questioning my fate in God but I know he has better plans for us. Until now, I still think about what happen especially now that we started to try again after 1.5 years of recovering and being ready to try again. I’m scared but I’m willing to try again.
    I really pray & hope your baby boy survive this ordeal and I believe God is there to guide your baby boy. I will include you in my prayers and hope you and Jim can overcome this trials your facing now. God bless to the both of you.
    PS. sorry for the lengthy comment :)

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you and I’m so sorry for your loss. God bless you.

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    zaiaflaviano

    March 7, 2018

    Our condolences..
    Godspeed xx

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Karla

    March 7, 2018

    God bless you Saab and your family. I wi pray for your baby boy fast recovery. For you and your husband strength to continue fight for your baby boy! God has a reason why this is happening. Continue to seek guidance to Him. You’ll get through this. The rainbow is coming! 😊

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  183. Reply

    Peachie Enriquez

    March 7, 2018

    You and your husband will make it through only by the grace of God given to you and your baby boy…you are blessed with a good husband. Our God will sustain and hold your baby boy…be confident in God’s promises…”He will never leave you nor forsake you.”

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  184. Reply

    Ofel

    March 7, 2018

    be strong,there is no harm on crying,it will release all your pains and most of all,continue to believe in Him,coz everything has a purpose,keep the faith stronger..deepest condolence.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  185. Reply

    Nicole

    March 7, 2018

    Psalm 118:18
    “The Lord has chastened me severely, but He has not given me over to death”

    I just want to say thank you for being an inspiration amidst the trials that you’ve been through. I know it’s a tough road to take, but our God is more powerful than anything/anyone in this world. I know you already know this stuff, but I just feel like telling it to you anyway (as a way of reminding myself as well.)

    Praying for you and your family.

    Sincerely,

    Nicole

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Summer

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for ur angel baby gurl and for ur family and also to ur baby boy. Strenght, love , light and peace to u and ur fam. Godbless always. 💕 will light uo a candle for her in the church and also for u and ur fam to be strong and faithful in these trying times.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  187. Reply

    Nosrejel

    March 7, 2018

    I pray that God will give you the strength to get through this very difficult time. My thoughts and prayers will be you and your family. Stay strong.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Aish

    March 7, 2018

    Awww I have a twin and I cant imagine life without her :( this is so sad </3 love you saab!!!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  189. Reply

    sheina

    March 7, 2018

    akala ko nanganak ka lng kaya wala akong nakikitang post mo.. last week ko p gusto i-tag si jim, maxene pati linya2 pra makibalita ano ng ganap sau? I’ve been an afid reader of your blog & a faithful follower in ig so gets ko agad n may malaking ganap bakit wala k p post (d ako sanay) it has been a habbit to check my ig & see ur post & story every night before i go to bed or if i can squeeze a minute during office hour.. nalungkot ako na ganito nga ka-big time ang balita about ur babies. excited pa nman ako makita kung magalona or bacarro ba ang mukha nila 😢
    there’s no right words to console a grieving heart, all we have is GOD for he has a perfect reason why such thing is happening, we may not be able to get the answer now but please don’t lose hope & ur faith in HIM while we’ll pray for your little ones & the whole family.. kapit lang bes!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  190. Reply

    Mabel

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for your family, sab 💓

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Trish

    March 7, 2018

    Hi, Saab. I am one of your silent followers. I enjoy reading your blogs and seeing you on instagram. Although this is such a hurtful experience, I’m glad that the Lord has given you hope. He’s good always, He knows the plans He has for you. He has a big picture for youand your household, and that includes this. May you continue to be a strong person with faith and trust in the Lord. I know your Baby Girl won’t leave, she will always be there watching over your family. I will be praying for you all. God bless!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    sydney

    March 7, 2018

    Praying for you and to your baby boy i know its really hard but have faith everything will be okay i love u ate saab 😊 smile and think positive 😊😊

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

  193. Reply

    Aprille Anne Reynante

    March 7, 2018

    Stay strong mommy Saab. 💔😢
    This is so heartbreaking, what you said was true that God will help you take away all the pain and anger. Prayers for your angel and baby boy, I hope he gets well and make her parents smile everyday. 👪💞

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    tomatostellar

    March 7, 2018

    Hugs

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Nira

    March 7, 2018

    I’ve been excited to see your twins. Because i know they are too pretty and handsome. Its sad that your baby girl didn’t make it. But i know your baby boy will fight to see the real world. Sending prayers to your baby boy for fast recovery. Always pray. God bless you idol 💖

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    M cia

    March 8, 2018

    Hi Saab,
    I am your silent fan- M cia. Condolences to you and Jim. I was so shocked and sadden to your recent post sa instagram and to this blog. Somehow nararamdaman ko ang hurt, because when my younger sister lost her first son 6 years ago i was with her (and since during her pregnancy). I saw how the doctors tried to save the baby. The premature baby lived only for a day in ICU. Naikarga nya lang ang kanyang baby boy in her arms na wala ng buhay coz she couldn’t dare look at her baby when it was in the ICU. Nasasaktan talaga ako para sa sister ko. But God always has His own great ways. This coming May mag-5 yrs. old na ang healthy 2nd son nya. Parang na-reincarnate lang c baby after a few months. Now he’s the sunshine of the family. I believe you now have you your sunshine – your baby boy.
    I know nothing can compare the sorrow and pain of a bereaved mother and father. Lalo na sa’yo. But know that we will also be praying for your baby boy’s recovery, for her twin sister who’s now an angel, and for your family to stay strong. I know it’s hard but I admire your attitude and spirit in these difficult times. Yes, you are so blessed with many things especially your life, your baby’s and the people around you who love you.
    I’m a follower of your love story for almost 2 years i think. Thank you for inspiring us, Saab. Keep the faith. Keep inspiring.

    ❤️ from Cebu

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you for sharing your sister’s story. <3

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    Kaye

    March 8, 2018

    prayers and hugs for you mommy

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Kirsty Alleser

    March 8, 2018

    Always praying for you and for baby boy and for the whole family. Cyber hug, Saab.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    sweettoothof1992

    March 8, 2018

    Hi Saab,

    I cannot imagine kung gaanong hirap ang sakit ang nararanasan niyo ngayon but God has plans for your family. Your sweet little girl ay nasa arms na ngayon ng dad mo. We love you so much Saab and we’re praying for you. Be strong for your little boy.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Rov

    March 8, 2018

    Hi Saab. First of all i’m really sorry for your loss. I wish you well and your family and i’ll be praying for your little boy too. I just read your latest blog, I feel sad and at the same time feel worried. I am also pregnant and I just have some questions about what happened with your pregnancy, like why it ended up like that? Did you gave birth earlier than your due date? What went wrong with your labour and delivery? I am asking all of this but it doesn’t mean that it’s necessary for you to answer. I just hope that if it can happen to some, you could share awareness on how to handle this situation or how to avoid this. Thank you Saab. I know you’ll get through this soon, remember that whatever problem God may given us, he always knew that we can handle it. So just trust God in every step of the way. I know that even though you didn’t get much time with your daughter, i’m sure that she knows how you did take good care of her for the whole stage of your pregnancy, she felt your love and she will cherish it up in heaven and we’ll be looking out for you always. God bless you and your family, Saab.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you! I am still finding answers until now but rest assured I will share my story when I get to the bottom of things. God bless your pregnancy!

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    Jennifer

    March 8, 2018

    Hi Saab
    The way I am feeling I guess doesn’t measure near enough to how much pain you are in. I lost my baby 2 weeks ago and I still think any moment now I will wake up from this dream. I say dream because I wouldn’t let my baby be part of a nightmare. I say my feelings doesn’t measure up to your pain because I only carried nearing to the first trimester but it still is extremely heartbreaking for me. I know that no amount of words can make you feel any better but I want you to know that I stand with you and will pray with you and for you. I may be a stranger but we both share a mother’s love for our lost angels. I am strongly holding on to the quotes “When God takes something away from you, it’s because He is emptying your hands for something special and preparing you for what you’re about to become”
    I wish you all the best.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Oh no :( I’m so sorry.

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    Glaiza Dale

    March 8, 2018

    Psalm 34:18-19
    18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
    and saves the crushed in spirit.
    19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
    but the Lord delivers him out of them all.

    May the Lord Jesus bless you and touch you with His healing hand and gives you comfort and peace.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jerlie Maon-Rafanan

    March 8, 2018

    “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart”
    Psalm 37:4
    Be strong Jim and Saab, I’l pray for your baby boy and your little angel. God bless your family ❤

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Ceara Desamynn Ripdos

    March 8, 2018

    Stay strong ate saab and kuya jim! ❤ #iamafan 💕

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Apol Mora

    March 8, 2018

    Such a brave heart. God bless you and your wonderful family.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Reese

    March 8, 2018

    Stay strong, Jim & Saab! Sending our prayers for you and for your little boy.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    susy

    March 8, 2018

    be strong saab! You’re such an inspiration for me! Your baby angel is in heaven now.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Queennieley

    March 8, 2018

    Keep on praying and be strong for your baby boy ate sab. Di pakita nakikita nor nakikilala pero mahal na kita dahil sa tatag mo. Godbless you and your family

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Vanessa Supetran

    March 8, 2018

    God is Good. <3 Trust him. keep smiling Saab :)

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jana Sarte

    March 8, 2018

    Dear Saab,

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. Your story fills me with sadness as I’m experiencing something similar.
    My husband and I are first time parents and we lost our baby boy in a tragic and traumatic way. I gave birth to him last January 18, 2018, Thursday, via c-section (i was diagnosed with pre eclampsia) at 36 weeks 4/7 days, he weigh 2.2kg and they said my baby is healthy and they room-in him with me. But came Saturday, my husband rushed our baby to the NICU as he noticed our baby’s heartbeat was getting slower and his skin was getting darker. January 21, 2018 we lost our baby. The doctors said it was SIDS. To be honest we are not convinced. Those events happened while me and my baby was still inside the hospital.
    I have overwhelming emotions right now; sadness, despair, anger, guilt and pain. Honestly, I dont know how to emerge from this abyss. I’m trying so hard to be strong for myself, for my husband and for our baby Gabriel who is now our angel. I know he doesn’t want to see us sad. As our baby’s name means “God is my strength”, right now I’m really holding tight to Him.
    I know how hard it is to be strong as I also at times don’t know how, especially for the time like this but please be strong for your baby boy as he needed you more now.
    I will pray for you and your family especially to your baby boy for his fast recovery. And for our angel babies forever we will love them and forever we will be their mommies.
    Thank you for reading this. God Bless.

    Sincerely,
    Jana Sarte
    Mommy of an angel

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Oh no!! How awful!!:((( I am incredibly sorry for your loss. I feel your trauma, mama. :( I am so so so sorry. I wish I could hug you.

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    Kaye

    March 8, 2018

    I hope your boy gets stronger each day and that you and Jim will be in your best health when you welcome him home.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Anvie Leseguiz

    March 8, 2018

    Hi ate Saab! I feel so sorry for your lost :( Praying for your baby boy and also to your family. Malalagpasan nyo din yan. God Bless!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Gorgeous

    March 8, 2018

    This too shall pass. Hugs Saab and Jim ❤️😇 May God give all the comfort that U’ll need

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Malot Tolosa

    March 9, 2018

    Hang in there! God works in wondrous ways. My prayers are with and your family during the trials you are going through! Trust in God! We love you!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thanks, tita!

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    Fran

    March 9, 2018

    Hi Saab! Just wanted to say I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been following you on your pregnancy journey since I was also pregnant and I thought it was incredible to be carrying twins. I know your babygirl would have thought you were an amazing mommy! Stay strong and hang in there for your babyboy. You will get through this. I will be praying for you guys. God bless!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you! God bless you too

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    Jesiele Ventanilla

    March 9, 2018

    Hi Saab! I’ve seen your motherhood journey thru your IG. Ever since your last post, I was thinking maybe you are preparing for the birth of the twins that’s why you are inactive. Hearing this news breaks my heart. I, too, is a parent. I can’t imagine the pain your family is going through especially you. Have strength and faith. Your baby boy is fighting. My prayers for all of you.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    filipinas dava

    March 9, 2018

    praying for you Saab and your family. God Bless!😘

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Tricia Centenera

    March 9, 2018

    Dear Jim & Saab.
    Condolences. My heart goes out to you both. My prayers and love are with you always. Turn to the Lord, he will give you comfort in your most desperate hours.
    You are going to be the most amazing parents to you baby boy I just know it.
    Love and light. God bless you both, Tricia Centenera xxxxx

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you, Tricia <3

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    Elysse Jane Magalona

    March 9, 2018

    Hello ate saab! I do believe that God gives His hardest battles to His strongest soldiers. He doesn’t give trials beyond what we can handle. Continue to trust in the Lord. He promised us that He will be our ever present help in times of troubles (Psalm 46:1). He never leaves us nor forsakes us. And if He is with us, who can be against us. (Romans 8:31). He is fighting on our behalf. Stay strong! ❤️❤️❤️

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!!

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    Leah

    March 10, 2018

    It broke my heart, butI know your baby girl is watching over you. And for your baby boy, I know he will be a strong one. God is always with you. Be strong

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Rochele

    March 10, 2018

    It’a the most unimaginable and No one will ever understand the pain. I can only hope things to be better for you and the husband. Keep fighting With your baby boy.

    Ours we lost, (1 year ago by Mar28) as i brought him out prematurely at 24 weeks. We fought with our first born extremely hard and prayed with all our might that he stays with us. But you see, only God will know what’s to be taken. We lost our baby after a month and a half in NICU.

    The void will always be there and a mother’s heart will never ever forget/move past it. Be strong Saab. I am equally lucky i have a very strong and loving husband. Said a little prayer for your little angel and baby boy.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you and I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    Flora

    March 10, 2018

    Our God is all knowing and loving. Praying he gives you and your family strength during this period and always. Praying for your baby boy as well.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Sam

    March 10, 2018

    Hi Ms. Saab! I’m sorry for what happened to your baby girl. I’ve been through the same situation and my baby girl made it after so many tests and procedures sa nicu and she’s 4mos now and super tabachuy. I’ll be praying for you and especially your baby boy who’s fighting. God bless you! 💕

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Aly

    March 10, 2018

    Oh, Saab. It is such a tragedy to hear about this. I am so so sorry for your loss. No words are precisely tantamount to express you and Jim’s pain, but we are here to comfort you in any possible way that we can. I am praying for your baby boy’s safety and health. Praying for yours, too. I am sure that your baby girl is looking after you, Jim, and her twin. Be strong for your family. God bless always! *virtual hugggg!*

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Gie

    March 11, 2018

    I didn’t have the same situation as you, but i feel your pain as a Mom. You’re very strong and I adore how you conquer everything. My prayers are sent for your family mostly to your baby boy. He will be healed. He will see this world with her Sister angel always beside him. Stay strong.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Katrina Calingo

    March 11, 2018

    I love you Saab. I used to visit your blog when you were still a teenager (and I) and all I could say is that the strong woman I knew before is way stronger now. <3

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!:(

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    violet

    March 11, 2018

    saab, hugs. big hugs. crying with you.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you, Violet!

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    Jaz

    March 11, 2018

    You can very well do it sab.. many parents are in a more challenging situation as yours but they survived. I know that God will take care of your family. We will be including you in our prayers as we pray also for the nicu babies here at fabella hospital. Be strong. Your little buddy is hanging on because of you and jim

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Kathie

    March 11, 2018

    My heart is crying out for what happened to your baby girl Ms. Saab that I can’t help myself sending you this message.

    Praying for you and Jim, your fast recovery in giving birth & a perfect healing for your baby boy.

    – Kathie
    (newbie mom din)

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Irish Nicole Roura

    March 13, 2018

    GOD BLESS YOU PO ate saab ♡ we’re always here for you! Stay strong & happy~ you were so blessed, muah! 💕

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Rica

    March 14, 2018

    You can do it.. by God’s grace you will.. I always believe that these things have some purposes.. be strong sister..

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jasmine

    March 14, 2018

    I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine what you are going through right now . I hope that one day you will find the reason why you lost your baby girl. Be strong and keep fighting for your little boy. ❤❤❤

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Kirstyalleser

    March 16, 2018

    Hoping and praying for your whole family. How is baby boy??

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Bella

    March 18, 2018

    Stay strong Saab! Your baby girl is in our thoughts. And we will pray for your baby boy. Sending your fam virtual hugs.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Annaleine

    March 19, 2018

    Hi saab, lagi mo lang tatandaan pray ka lang mlalagpasan nyo din yan!! Godbless 😘

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    anyah

    March 20, 2018

    ahhh T.T
    God bless you Saab and Jim. <3
    Just remember this verse: Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord; Plans to prosper you & not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future."

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    maxinne

    March 23, 2018

    Remember that you’re not alone in this battle , for the Lord is with you now and forever. godbless saaaaab

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Keith Lynne Malabaguio

    March 24, 2018

    Hi. If you think that, hindi pantao yung pinagdadaanan nyo, what more if you lose another twin. I’m a mother of twin boys and they both died. You can’t imagine the pain that me and my husband gone through to cope up with their death. I mean, I’ve read your tweets, people always say that they’re not meant for us. I’m telling this to you for you to be encourage and not be upset for things happen for a reason. You are not alone in this battle. Please be strong for your son. Your angel is happy now. She”s in great hands. No more pain. Thank you.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      I hope you don’t think it’s a contest of who is hurting more? I’m very sorry for your loss but please know that I am also allowed to feel pain even if one of my twins survived. I’m sure you meant well with your comment but maybe next time acknowledge a person’s pain first? Thank you.

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    Etch

    March 27, 2018

    Thank you for sharing your story. I know its hard going back to every detail to what had happened to your baby. I know because i’ve been there. Like you, marami din akong sinisi sa pagkawala nia, i blamed myself too, i blamed everyone, and now, when i think of how i managed to live after he left us, i couldn’t find an answer. I can only listen to my heart and say, “it was all because of God’s grace. He was our first-born, our only baby at that time. After he left us, only God knows how much i cried to Him to give us another baby, my arms ache for him. My whole being aches for him. And again, it was all because of God’s grace that we have our Rainbow baby now. Hugs to you.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Finn

    March 28, 2018

    Hi Saab. Praying for you and your baby boy to be in good health. Sending you virtual hugs. Stay strong.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Lisamarie Santos

    March 28, 2018

    hi Saab! We would like you to know that youbare not alone. NICU life is hard. I’m glad that you have found your way to our group NICU Families and Preemie Support PH. You can interact with other preemie parents and we can help you find hard to look for items that your preemie needs. we also have members that have been through losing one of their twins as well. you can share your journey with us without worrying about being judged. God Bless! Keep up the fight and be strong!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    gigi

    March 28, 2018

    condolence saab. i hope your baby boy will be ok soon.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Pisha

    March 28, 2018

    Dearest Saab,

    I’m literally crying right now because I can feel how broken you guys are but still chose to fight. Sobrang nakaka inspire yung strength mo, Saab. Tama! It’s all God. I’m in the end of my first trimester and for some cute reasons, I always follow your IG updates about your pregnancy. I always tell my boyfriend na ang cute siguro ng twins nila kaya for sure I know your baby girl’s really beautiful. We’ll add you, jim and baby boy in our prayers. I don’t know if this would help in your healing, or inspire you, but there’s this poem that talks about strength. “Courage” by anne sexton. Really helps. We love you Saab! Prayers move mountains. 😘

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you! God bless your pregnancy!

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    Maria Angelica Saragina

    March 28, 2018

    Hi ate. Alam mo ba mula nun nalaman ko dito sa Japan na buntis ka at kambal pa, kahit hindi mo ako kilala isa ako sa pinakamasaya na nalaman ko at nabasa ko tungkol sa magiging babies mo. Pai yung lumalaki tyan mo at nag baby shower ka😊 Pero sa ngayon na pinagdadaanan mo ate, feel kita sobra.. Ako ate 17 pa lang ako nun nabuntis ako ng dating boyfriend ko, sobrang halos gapang sa sahig ang dinanas namin ng mama ko kasi hindi ako sinuportahan ng tatay ng anak ko.. pero ikaw napaka swerte mo kasi kahit anong mangyari anjan ang pamilya mo at asawa mo.. ako naranasan ko yun makita ko ang mama ko na lumuhod at magmakaawa sa doktor para lang mabuhay ang anak ko.. kasi muntik na sya mamatay halos 10 minuto huminto na ang puso nya mula nun pinanganak ko sya😭 halos mabaliw na ako ate natutulala ako at iiyak bigla napraning na talaga ako nun time na yon. Nakita ko din ang anak ko na ilang swero sa ang nakatusok sa dalawang pa at kamay nya sabay2 nakatusok habang nasa NICU sya 😭 nakita ko anak ko na manila at mangitim dahil nun huminto ang puso nya habang katabi ko😭 sobrang Sakit ate. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko noon dahil kaka-18 pa lang ako nun nanganak at malapit na ko masiraan ng bait dahil don. Ngayon awa ng Diyos mag-6 years old na ang baby boy ko sa April 2 ate. Hindi na bumalik ang sakit nya na Severe Congenital Pneumonia. At kasama ko pa sya dito sa Japan😊 Ate, Una sa lahat lagi kumapit sa Diyos, may dahilan ang lahat bakit nangyayari satin ito, Diyos lamang nakakaalam ng lahat ng mga nangyayari sa buhay natin diba sabi nga.. pangalawa, Mahalin lagi ang pamilya, napaka-blessed mo ate kasi nasa tabi mo lagi ang asawa mo. 😊 Pamilya ang lagi natin masasandalan. Lakas lang ng loob ate. Hindi dapt move on eh, dapat move forward. 👍🏻 God bless always ate.😘😘

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you! So happy to hear your baby is well.

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    Kristine

    March 29, 2018

    I am always fan of your instagram and twitter posts but when I read this it really broke my heart. Sending prayers to you and your family :) keep tha faith Ate saab hihi ☺ your little angel is in a good hands, I’m sure she’s watching you every day and always :)

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Nichole

    March 29, 2018

    Ive always been inspired by your stories but this one is different. You and Jim both fight hard enough to make it through and I hope you really make it through no matter how harder it gets. Youve been an inspiration to many, it’s now time for many to inspire you. Keep faith and continue to love, Saab.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Paw Cortez de Juan

    March 29, 2018

    Stay strong mommy Saab. I know God has it’s purpose why He gave you this kind of trial and always remember that He has something greater in return when you surpass all of this. Always find comfort in Him, your husband and your family cause I know they will be there for you to support you all through out this painful experience. Like myself I have been through life and death experience also but I never loose faith in God that He will never forsake me in troubled times. And your post is so inspiring to read and I hope that you inspire more people through your blog. Keep writing and sharing more. 😊 God bless you and your family. Stay Strong. 💪😊

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Abbey Bee

    March 29, 2018

    Hi saab! Im sorry for your loss. Im standing with you in prayers that God will be your strength and comforter in this very difficult time. And claiming miracles for your little one. God loves you and your family. He will never leave you nor forsake you. God is always with you. And all things are possible with Jesus. ☝

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    AAP

    March 29, 2018

    This is only means that youre stronger than you think for God will never give you trials you cannot overcome. It is heartbreaking, especially as a mother for i am also one, but heaven is even more beautiful with Luna there. And she will be looking down on you forever. Praying for your family.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    kpoptrash

    March 29, 2018

    Hi, Ate Saab. I’ve been waiting for your posts sa Instagram account mo and I haven’t checked yet pero kanina I was looking through my sns accounts and found out about what happened. I’m sorry for your loss, I mean it. Sobrang happy ako whenever I read your posts about being pregnant and how hard for you to deal with this ‘soon-to-be-mommy’ stuff. I couldn’t believe she’s gone too soon. But I believe that everything that has happened to you, it all happened for a reason. I want to believe in you, kuya Jim, and your baby boy that the three of you will soon knock out these obstacles na nagcha-challenge sa inyo. Those are just challenges, to test how faithful you are to Him. But anyways, ang layo na nitong mga sinasabi ko sa gusto kong i-punto. I’m too young, (15) para mangielam but I care. Be strong, be happy, be faithful. ‘Yun lang naman gusto kong i-point out and I know that is what you’re doing. I admire the both of you for doing so. God bless, Ate. We’re always here for you.

    p.s I know it is psych, that not everyone can appreciate your comfort pero I hope this could help to make you at least a little bit better after what’s all that happened. I love you! Luna is up there, giving you guidance with God.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Regine

    March 29, 2018

    I am one of those who is very excited to see your baby. And seeing your posts just right now really breaks my heart. Be strong for I kmow that you will be the best mother to your son. My deepest condolences. I love you. May God bless your family.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Dennis Pepito

    March 29, 2018

    God is with us, always. God will give aid.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jan Michelle Dela Cruz

    March 29, 2018

    everything happens for a reason, don’t ask God, he has his ways. i know it’s hard because it also happens to my Janiela Frei. Nov. 24, 2011 i gave birth to her, full term, 7.4lbs. ive waited for her for 9 months, but God said she’s too beautiful on earth, Nov. 27, 2017 she was born in heaven. it’s so hard for me, i even question God why it happen, why me? but then i realized, He has his reasons at alam kong hindi nya ko bbigyan ng pagsubok na hindi ko kayang lagpasan, and i believed Him. nakaya ko, nalampasan ko with God’s help. then after a year i get pregnant again, a gave birth to a beautiful boy. Jin Faust, he’s 5 years old now. alam ko kaya mo yan, at si baby boy mo, ipagpray lang natin kay God ah. kaya mo yan! Fighting! ♥️♥️♥️

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    jujidelarama

    March 29, 2018

    My condolences ate Saab. I will pray for Luna just like I have never forgetten to include sir Kiko in my prayers. I agree, and do believe that she gave up her life for you. Your daughter is far better a human being than other living people in this world. She knows that you needed to live for her twin brother. You and Jim are hurting, but you two are strong. You will be a great mother, I know it. Heaven gained another angel.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Riza

    March 29, 2018

    I know how hard it must have been to you and your family. I will pray for your strength and know that God, your dad and your baby angel is always watching over. They are so proud on how you and Jim stood up after the storm.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Leah

    March 30, 2018

    You’re such an admirable person, been supporting you since I saw you on a programme being televised is channel 5 not sure if it’s lips or kiss. Then I started reading your blog “spellsaab” but then adulting hits really hars that I couldn’t even afford the time to read. One thing I like about you is that you like reading so much that you inspire others to read as well. Now reading this gave me another reason to like you even more. I really don’t know you personally but as one of your avid follower I know how strong you are and how lucky Luna to have you as her mom. Will be praying 🙏🏽 for your recovery and your son’s as well. God bless and keep the faith!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Alexis Angulo

    March 30, 2018

    Kapit lang. ✊✨

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jewel

    March 30, 2018

    Hi Saab, I really like you and following you on insta and here in your blog (parang silent fan lang, first time koo nga din magcomment sa artist) 😊 nagworried na koo that I havent heard anything na so I thought you just make panganak lang that is why and waiting for your post 😓 but i just found this now 😭 I always believe that God will not give u something na you cannot survive. Sometimes blessing in disguise pa. I know your baby boy will make it and I will be happy hearing that. This might not help you na mawala yung pain but I know this might give you a little motivation. I will pray for your baby boy and you and Jim to be happy 😘 God bless you! FIGHTING!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Abigail Adona

    March 30, 2018

    Hi, ate saab. I always admire you for being strong, your personality is so special, in may have not met you in person but just looking at your post’s in social media I just I admire everything about you, I love how you managed your marriage like it is so cool! 😊 and how strong you are despite all the downfall’s you are going through, I also have a little angel (baby girl) and you know what I am a single mom, at my very young age, and seeing people you love’s their child makes me wanna love my child more, thank you for inspiring me/us . I wish the best in life I will keep your family in my prayers always. Again ate saab, thank you 😘😘

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    jen

    March 30, 2018

    nalungkot dn ako ng sobra nung malaman ko to. can’t imagine the hurt that ur feeling right now.. i know that ur still going through something we might never understand.. pero tama lang na kumapit ka kay God you can never go wrong with him. Godbless you saab and ur family.. specially kay baby boy.. love you..

    your fan 😉

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Mekka Loyola

    March 30, 2018

    You are a very strong woman. I salute you for that! I know how hard it is to accept the truth. I was crying while reading this.😢😭 I know many people were inspired by this. Continue to be strong for your baby boy. And for those who commited mistakes, let God make a decision. And lift all your worries and anger to God.
    Im following you about your pregnancy and it hurt me a lot too. Be strong both of you!❤

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Jonalyn Vella

    March 30, 2018

    I will pray for your little boy… sana maging healthy na xa… God is good, nakakatuwa po na matibay ang faith niyo kay Lord despite everything.. take care po always

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    Sarah

    April 2, 2018

    Stay strong. Praying for all of you. ❤️

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    kim catral

    April 2, 2018

    Saab,
    Kaya mo yan! You have a loving husband and a baby boy. Think nalang na God has plans. I wish you well!

    Kim.
    a fan, a mother,

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you

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    Gracie Gras

    April 2, 2018

    I pray for you and Jims heart.
    Stay strong and continue to Trust in HIM. :)

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Frances15

    April 2, 2018

    God bless Saab, god will never leave you nor forsake you. Keep going. I love your personality and how you influence people around you. You may not know me personally but i will included you in my prayers. 😇

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Marriane

    April 5, 2018

    God has complete control of every situation. Trust in the Lord. At pumayapa. Yung battle talaga natin kasi is to hope against hope. Napakabuti ng Panginoon sa buhay mo Saab. Nakakabless yung blog mo. I probably wait for your new post. Thanks and Godbless. Hello to baby boy Pancho.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    judy

    April 5, 2018

    No words…
    Only prayers for you and Jim.
    You have a strong God to lean on.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you <3

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    Leila Pamplona

    April 6, 2018

    Dear Saab,

    Thank you for inspiring me thru this story. I admire you for being strong and for keeping the faith focused to our Lord and Savior. He is watching over your beautiful family.

    Jesus loves you❤️

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!

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    SJ

    April 7, 2018

    Stay strong Jim and Saab! I know how much it hurts losing someone you love. I lost my son and it was on my birthday. It’s truly painful. However, we know that God still has better plans for us. Everything happens for a reason and we might not understand God’s plan, we should trust His heart.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Oh my :( I am so sorry that happened to you.

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    rona

    April 8, 2018

    i don’t pretend to know the challenges you’re facing but i am glad that you didn’t let the tragedy rule over your hearts and consume your peace and i know it’s only by God’s grace that you’re able to forgive. oh how the world wishes we also have gotten to know your baby girl, but we’re assured she’s resting in a much better home now, taken care by the loving hands of her Savior. i’m blessed by your strong faith and hope that you’ve placed on Jesus. praying for your whole family ate saab! God loves you all very much :) 1 pet. 5.7

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you very much.

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    Jade Osorio

    April 19, 2018

    We pray for your fast recovery – Physically and emotionally. We experience trials and challenges because this world is so cruel. And the innocence of our little ones make it less cruel! Continue praying Saab. The Lord loves us

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you!!

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    MaricelleCV

    April 20, 2018

    Baby Luna will always watch you three from above, Saab.

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      <3

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    IA

    April 27, 2018

    I love you, Saab! You, Jim and Pancho will get through this. God bless your family ♥️

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      <3

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    Chenette Galvez

    May 16, 2018

    Reading this one made me felt like crying..i don’t have kids not a single one but im a kid person esp. babies..it’s amazing how you surpassed all of these..been watching your miracle boy from your ig stories and i am happy to see him growing little by little..his twin sister is really watching over him. You are such a brave and dedicated person as you are as a mother too..belated happy moms day and Godbless you and your little boy also your family.

    Love, Chen ♥️

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      <3

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    Vicky M.

    June 18, 2018

    I just learned about this sad news. I used to see your posts on twin pregnancy and had to check on your previous ones if I remembered wrong. Turns out, I was right and was shocked to have found out that you lost your baby girl. I read the part when you said she gave her life for you and her brother. That was very touching. Keep hoping and carry on. God bless you and your family. Prayers for healing for all of you. Congratulations on your baby boy. Be strong for him! Belated Happy first Mother’s day & Father’s day to you & the hubbs😍😘 Kisses to Pancho!

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      Saab

      July 3, 2018

      Thank you so much!:)

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    Kimberly

    July 21, 2018

    I love you Saab. Everytime I look at pancho I’ve always imagined what Luna looks like. ❤

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      Saab

      September 24, 2018

      <3

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