I woke up this morning totally heartbroken.
In my dream, Jim was super flirting with an ex-girlfriend RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! Inside jokes galore, thinking it was she who kicked him under the table instead of me, etc. I woke up so sad!!
I’ve done my fair share of reading baby books and, in Jim’s opinion, a little too much Googling throughout my pregnancy to know what’s going on. Somehow, pregnant women have way more vivid dreams than the regular person. And it’s true! I’ve murdered people, I’ve given birth to my 18-year-old brother, I even predicted Tim Yap’s surprise wedding (well, sort of).
If I were to analyze last night’s dream, I’d say that it has something to do with my subconscious being very body-conscious right now :( I’m not feeling very pretty, I’m so uncomfortable, my ass is huge. Doesn’t help that just a few nights ago, somebody pointed out that the lines on my neck have gone darker because of my pregnancy hormones. THANKS A LOT, PERSON I’VE NEVER MET BEFORE. Anyway, I think my dream is a reflection of my insecurity right now.
For the record, I still think I’m super cute, okay?! Hahaha! Yung subconscious ko lang yung insecure!! But with the twins getting heavier each day, I am getting more and more uncomfortable.
I’m on my 25th week and if my discomfort means that the two kids are getting comfortable in my belly, then by all means. Besides, I woke Jim up before sunrise to tell him what happened in an accusatory tone and in his groggy state he just wrapped me in his arms and calmed me down. Take that, subconscious!!
Happy new year, by the way ✨