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Pills + Periods + Pads

March 22, 2017 69 Comments

WARNING: this blog post might have a little too much information. It will get bloody.

I got my period last night so I wore a sanitary pad right before going to bed. Very early this morning, I was lying on my belly and Jim rolled over to hug me. When his arm hit my butt, it felt a little damp and because he was half-asleep he just rolled back to his side of the bed. I was very sleepy but I knew I couldn’t pretend it wasn’t what I suspected. After a full 5 seconds and a full sigh, I got up and saw blood on the sheets.

MOTHERFUDGE.

The bathroom was just a few steps from the bed but I walked like I was wearing a dirty diaper. I pulled down my shorts and I didn’t understand why my pad only had a few blots on it. My period seemed to have just slid off it, creating a murder scene on my underwear and shorts.

None of this was really registering, of course, because it was 4:30 in the morning and I just wanted to go back to sleep. So I did the drill: I threw the mess in the sink, washed myself, and scrubbed the bloody duo while completely naked down there. I put on a fresh pair of underwear and pad so I could climb back in bed to cuddle with Jim. Cuddling with him was also a tactic to avoid my bloody part of the mattress. (I dealt with that hours later – when I woke up for real.)

I haven’t had a leaky night in years. I’ve been on birth control pills since I started college. A pimple appeared on my nose and when I asked mom how to get rid of it, she gave me the usual skin care routine and told me how birth control pills could also help clear it up. I’m pretty sure it was her subtle way of telling me not to get pregnant yet. Over a decade later: my skin’s close to perfect and I have zero unwanted pregnancies under my belt. Thanks, mom.

I went off the pill late last year just for the heck of it. Still not actively trying to get pregnant but I just figured I wanted to go back to the days when I didn’t have to take a pill at the same time every day. Ma-try lang. Haha! All those years on the pill made my period very regular and lighter than ever. Now that I’m off it, I feel like my body’s getting used to it so this cycle has been very “clotty” hence the non-absorption by the pad.

Being off the pill has also thrown off my cycle awareness. Before, when my pills would run out, I knew I was going to get my period in a few days. Now, I’m almost always caught off guard. I should really start forecasting it on my bullet journal, noh? It’s like I’m getting to know my body all over again and I’ve been very emotional since yesterday about all of this. It reminded me of this video by Glamour called “This is Your Period in 2 Minutes”

So true, right? It made me think of how I usually have a whole week of feeling like I can rule the world and that I’ve finally cracked the code to “How To Get Shit Done” until the following week when I just feel like a complete loser so I completely give up on my responsibilities.

Perhaps being on the pill kept my emotions at bay? I feel like I’m going through puberty all over again haha! Might as well stop treating my period like an unwanted visitor, right? If I’m about to get this emotional every month, I’m going to make it my “monthly feelings companion” LOL. What the heck am I saying??? What I mean to say is that I might as well put all this emotion to good use. I figured I should write about it in case it helps anybody feel less alone. I just felt like I needed to share this because I can’t be the only one to feel a little lost.

Another reason why I wanted to write about this is because I wanted to discuss menstrual cups. I’d feel less lost (and loser-y haha) if I knew I was helping save the planet from disposable pad- and tampon use. I learned that they products waste that’s 6 times as heavy as the frickin’ Titanic — and that’s just in the USA!! That’s just grossly irresponsible and I don’t want to contribute to it anymore. If you have any experience with menstrual cups and/or if you’re as curious as I am, I’d love to hear your thoughts on the matter.

Currently, I’m torn between the Diva Cup & Lily Cup Compact. Leaning more towards the latter. Also, I’m probably going back on the pill eventually because my gynecologist said it’s good for me but I’m gonna give it a few more months. Wala lang.

I wasn’t sure if I should actually publish this on my blog because it might gross you out, but if you’re grossed out by the female body then FUCK YOU.

Omg, sorry, that wasn’t me!! That was my period talking!!πŸ˜…

♥,
Saab

March 22, 2017

Saab

69 Comments

  1. Reply

    Merlinda Little (Glimmer of Hope)

    March 22, 2017

    Like right now blood is trickling from there as I type this! Haha that sounds like a crime novel. I tried pills but I am so not good in taking it at the same time. I gave up on that and I have heavy mens always. Like you I am guilty in using pads. I tried looking for those biodegradable but they are pricey here. Will look at these cups things… maybe I will give it a go.

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    Kim

    March 22, 2017

    Do I have to have a doctor’s prescription before getting on the pill? Anyway, I’m on my first day today, too and ughhhh!! I have an interview tomorrow so I hope I don’t get bothered by it =))

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      I’ve never needed a prescription to get my pills! Except when I was abroad and I forgot to pack it with me. Haha! So I skipped that month.

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    Abigee

    March 22, 2017

    Idk why but I love it when women get periods at the same time. It’s like we’re in this together πŸ˜‚

    Thanks for this post, Saab! I feel lighter now knowing Aunt Flo has given u a visit too. Hahahaha all the love πŸ’–

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Hahaha heyyy!

    • Reply

      jene

      March 30, 2017

      Hi Abi and Hello Saab. I’ve been reading your blog and I’m an avid fan and I would just like to share something about “getting pills” if you don’t mind. As a Pharmacist, well I would suggest you go see a doctor first. Not all pills work the same, kasi it depends on the patient’s condition. And pills are not over-the-counter drugs so for safety mas better consult muna. :)

      • Reply

        Saab

        March 30, 2017

        Great advice, thank you! I regularly go to the OB-Gyne and it’s a safe place to discuss these matters!

  4. Reply

    Bea Constantino

    March 22, 2017

    Same, Saab…….

  5. Reply

    Adel

    March 22, 2017

    HOW GENUINE.

    I also want to help save the planet in my own way. If you start usin menstrual cups, blog it too ms Saab :)

    And another question. I’m having breakouts and my sister too. Like SUPER ACNE all over. Tipong no space for new entry face. Sabi ng derma ng sister ko to try a pill (forgot what it’s called) but kailangan i monitor ang liver because of the side effects of the pill. and another requirement before taking the pill was bawal mabuntis…

    Does birth control pill do the same? Sabi nila nakaka ganda ng mukha, hormones are more balanced or controlled kung baga… :o

    nonetheless, if u read this. thank you! God bless. and more craziness and awesome content in ur blog. :)
    -adel

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      It’s widely known that birth control pills help clear your skin of acne. Ask your doctor if they’d recommend it for you :)

  6. Reply

    Fayee

    March 22, 2017

    Hi Saab! Can you make a blog din ba about pills? Any side effects it causes? Is it really OK to take one? Thanks so much :D

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      I’ll see what I can do :)

  7. Reply

    ky

    March 22, 2017

    What pills are you using, Saab?

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      I was on Yasmin for years!

  8. Reply

    Nica

    March 22, 2017

    I suggest watching ellwis in Youtube where she explained what and how menstrual cup are and used.

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Thanks!

  9. Reply

    rm

    March 22, 2017

    random question: why are you so blooming lately? share your secret pls!

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Wow, thank you! I don’t think I am but my friends were saying the same thing just yesterday!! Hehe thank you!!! I’ve been more vigilant about putting moisturizers, creams, and serums morning and night for over a week now. I guess it’s that?!

  10. Reply

    Ali

    March 22, 2017

    I use the Diva Cup and it has changed my life! Sounds dramatic but it’s the truth. Once you get the hang of it, it’s the easiest thing in the world. It doesn’t leak when placed correctly, doesn’t shift like pads, no risk of getting Toxic Shock Syndrome, and yes, no trash afterwards. My friend didn’t like the Lily Cup Compact because since it’s collapsible, it “collapses” while inside her. I never had a problem with my Diva Cup tho. It also changed the way I viewed that time of the month. I feel like it made me understand my body more. Cannot talk about it enough! Hahaha. I love it.

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 22, 2017

      Great to hear this!! Noted! I wonder if the Lily Cup (non-compact) works better though? The thinner silicone material appeals to me!!

      • Reply

        Ali

        March 22, 2017

        I don’t know if it works better but if cruelty-free is something that is important to you, I’d steer clear of the Lily cup since they test on animals. Learned that from this video: https://youtu.be/p6xiJu2EfYM I don’t know if they changed their stance now but there are so many brands to choose from and they’re also listed on that video. :)

        • Reply

          Saab

          March 23, 2017

          Waaaahhhhh!!! Thanks for the heads up!

    • Reply

      kitkat

      March 23, 2017

      hey Ali, do you live here in Manila? How’d you get your hands on your Diva cups? I’ve been curious about it for so long but I don’t know how to get them to our third world shore. Thanks!

      • Reply

        Ali

        March 23, 2017

        Hey! I got mine from a friend cos she had an extra unused! Diva Cup. One of my friends said there’s a store in Shang called Baby Mama or something that sells lots of menstrual cups. You can also try the local one called Sinaya Cups. https://www.facebook.com/sinayacup/ :)

        • Reply

          Saab

          March 23, 2017

          Thank you!!

  11. Reply

    Mayee

    March 23, 2017

    Oh my gosh I’ve never even heard of menstrual cups before!! Lived my life since puberty using pads and never looked back since. Time for research!!!

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Have fun!!!

  12. Reply

    Maria

    March 23, 2017

    I, too, have been thinking about switching to cups! Pero so hard to find it in Philippines huhuhu and if that liquid solution runs out, omg ubos yaman to order again. Orrrrrr, may alam ka ba where to find these here? Been eyeing diva too!!

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      What liquid solution?? Pwede naman daw soap and water lang :) I just read a comment about a local brand called Sinaya Cup!

  13. Reply

    K

    March 23, 2017

    My eyes stopped at that part when you got a pill for your pimple. LOL Anong pill yun bes? :D

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Birth control pills, like I said on my post hehe

  14. Reply

    K

    March 23, 2017

    Did you start getting pimples again when you got off the pill? I tried going off it for around four months and had horrible breakouts afterwards. I had to go back just to clear up my face again. It’s still in the “clearing process” but I hope my face will clear up again soon. I read some articles, saying that breakouts are worse after going off the pill.

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Hi, K! Thankfully I haven’t had any breakouts!!

  15. Reply

    Raei Baccay

    March 23, 2017

    Hi Saab! I’ve been using Sinaya Cup (local brand) for more than a year. I am never going back to pads and tampons. I’m sure you’ll get the hang of it quickly. Good luck!!

    I actually tweeted or commented na ata sayo to try menstrual cup, not sure if you read it. Haha

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Ooooh! Locally-made? Thanks, will check it out!:) No, I think I missed that!!

  16. Reply

    Kaye

    March 23, 2017

    I’ve seen a video on buzzfeed about trying the diva cup. it was messy the first time, but when the girl got the hang of it, she said it was okay, plus that thing about using too much pads and tampons. Sorry for saying this but it’s hard for me to imagine having a cup inside me for idk. 3-4 hrs? But ill read more about washable pads.

    Anyway thank you so much for writing about this and being completely honest with the pill use and stuff. Then, again you are a married woman, but are still young and have a lot of young readers. Lord knows young women need a lot of responsible and realistic info about reproductive health. Or at least someone to remind them to try and read about this stuff because it matters.

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Thanks, Kaye! I believe you can use the menstrual cup for 10-12 hours. I’ve used tampons before so I think I’m more comfy with the idea of the cup than most Filipinas! I’ll make a review haha

      • Reply

        Augustin Ra

        March 23, 2017

        You can use the cup for a long time as long as you know how heavy or light your menstrual flow is. When I used mine, I wore it for 5-6 hours and it was almost full. So using a cup is also good to get to know more of your flow. :)

        • Reply

          Saab

          March 23, 2017

          Thanks for the tip!:)

  17. Reply

    Jex

    March 23, 2017

    Ate saab, ano pong brand ng birth control pills? 😘

    • Reply

      Saab

      April 18, 2017

      Yasmin

  18. Reply

    Augustin Ra

    March 23, 2017

    Damn, girl! I admire you more because you talked about this. If you have time to check my blog, I started a girl talk series and well, I started talking about my period, my thoughts about menstrual cup and actually, using one! Omg, it has been a life, game and period changer for me. Although, you might want to use our country’s menstrual cup which is the Sinaya Cup. You know, #BuyLocal and at the same time, you’ll help the less fortunate women to have their own cups and the workers behind the cup especially the abaca pouch where you put your cup inside. If you want to get to know more of my experiences with the cup on the first and second day, head over to my blog. It might also give you some tips on how to use when you already have one.

    In my opinion, if you want to acquire a foreign brand of the cup, I prefer the Lena cup compared to the brands you mentioned considering the Youtube tutorials and reviews I’ve watched and read. However, if you care about the social responsibility and support local, Sinaya Cup is already a good brand.

    I’m so happy that you’re giving cups a consideration on your period game. Yay! :D

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 23, 2017

      Thank you!!!

  19. Reply

    Kitty Cutie

    March 24, 2017

    Hi Saab! I’m also considering menstrual cups since I’m really trying to reduce my carbon footprints. Together, let’s! :) Hope you’ll write a review about this topic, also, you can consider Sinaya cup :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 24, 2017

      Game, game!!

  20. Reply

    Ley

    March 24, 2017

    This post came at just the right time. I was just thinking how annoyingly bulky the pad I am wearing right now is. I’m still a little scared about using menstrual cups, though. If you’ve given the menstrual cups a try, please blog about them, too! :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 24, 2017

      Will do :)

  21. Reply

    Roxx

    March 24, 2017

    Having period really does suck for me in all aspects; physically, mentally and emotionally. I have even read somewhere that as we grow older, the cramps and all the symptoms get worse! I have irregular periods so it’s usually a surprise whenever it comes but I still record my cycle using an app on my phone. It helps because I can also track the symptoms and kind of predict if my period would be coming in a few days. (the app is called OvuView)

    I’ve also been considering using menstrual cups and have been researching about it! So far I’ve read positive reviews about it. Most tips are that you have to trim the stem a bit if it’s too long for you and try to use it before you have your period so you know how it goes in and how to get it out. :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 27, 2017

      Thank you!! Order the Sinaya Cup na and let’s try together hehe :)

  22. Reply

    monica

    March 26, 2017

    I absolutely love my Diva Cup!!!! No leaks EVER! I have to admit that it’s a little tricky getting it up there and you do need to practice. My tips are to relax and try different positions LOL. A little self-exploration doesn’t hurt, right?

    No more need for pads, pantyliners, tampons etc. Plus you leave it and forget it for 12 hours without risk of Toxic Shock Syndrome (associated with tampon use)! I cannot say enough good things about it.

    Fair warning though, if you don’t like the sight of blood, then it might not be for you. You have to dump the blood out (I do it in the shower and pour it down the drain. That way, I can rinse it and just put it back in). As for me, I think it’s interesting to see how much blood really comes out hahaha.

    Also, you might have to try different cups. We’re all different so the Diva Cup might be too big (though I know there’s two sizes). Some girls cut off the Diva Cup stem because they think it’s too long. Just try what works for you! There’s a ton of videos on youtube telling you what size cup you might need.

    Looking forward to your Diva Cup review!!! It is absolutely life changing!!

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 27, 2017

      Thanks for the tips!! I’m not scared of my own blood, so the shower tip is cool! I already ordered the local version called the Sinaya Cup! Will have to wait for next month’s visit from Aunt Flo hehe :)

  23. Reply

    Mae

    March 28, 2017

    Hi Ms. Saab! May I know what pills you are currently using? Thanks! :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 30, 2017

      Hi Mae. As I said I am not currently on the pill :)

  24. Reply

    Erika

    March 29, 2017

    What pill are you taking, Saab? I’ve been taking birth control pills and it was actually prescribed by my doctor to control my hormones for I have PCOS. But I’m scared for I’ve been taking it for 6 years already I think and I read something from Facebook that one girl had a surgery in her pancreas (if I remember it correctly) as a side effect of taking pills. :( I’m taking Yasmin btw. And yes, I don’t know if I should stop it or not for it’s helping my acne as well. Thank you for sharing this! God bless you!

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 30, 2017

      You can ask your gynecologist about it! He/she would know more. If you’re not convinced, you can get a second opinion from another gyne:)

  25. Reply

    D

    March 30, 2017

    I have PCOS and endometriosis so I’m on the pill for around 3 years. I recently decided to stop but I got withdrawals, OB said my body really liked the pills. The period that came after stopping the pills was so heavy and painful, I was so used to just using pantyliners for my period. Anyway, I’m back on the pill.

    • Reply

      Saab

      March 30, 2017

      Thanks, I will probably go back on the pill!

  26. Reply

    Luna

    April 8, 2017

    Hi Saab! Hope you could also check out Sinaya Cup! They donate menstrual cups to underpriveleged communities when someone buys a cup from them. :) They’re also a local brand.

    • Reply

      Saab

      April 18, 2017

      YES,using it right now heheheeh

  27. Reply

    Korai

    April 8, 2017

    How about Sckoon Cup? I love it. Been using it for a year now. :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      April 18, 2017

      Thanks, I already bought one from Sinaya Cup though :)

  28. Reply

    Raisa

    April 26, 2017

    OMG I love menstrual cups!!! I’ve been using one for over 3 years now and I think it’s one of the best inventions ever. I tried to convince my friends to use menstrual cups na pero ayaw nila. :( Hindi kasi uso dito sa province kahit tampons. Sobrang struggle lang nung first 3 months ng paggamit ko ng menstrual cup. Muntik na nga akong maggive up lol Pero I got the hang of it na ngayon.
    How’s your cup? I’m using a Luna cup and gusto ko rin sana bumili ng Sinaya cup. I hope you blog about your experience. :)

    • Reply

      Saab

      April 27, 2017

      I LOVE MY SINAYA CUP!! Will blog about it for sure

  29. Reply

    Gigi

    April 29, 2017

    Sinaya cup user here since last year and I’m never going back to pads! In my experience, there’s a learning curve at the beginning, a few awkward tries, but once you get comfortable, it’ll be easy & effortless. There are times when I’ll forget I have my period and I have a cup inside me haha, but I make it a point to empty and clean it before I go to bed and when I wake up in the morning. Perfect for my activities and travels (esp biking & swimming)! Btw, I cut the stem so it’ll fit more comfortable.

    Also, I feel you about getting off the pills. I was on pills for 6 years and when I stopped last year, I observed some changes on my body like weight loss (10lbs! probably just water weight!), less cystic acne, highs & lows of energy and higher libido (haha). I also felt that I was more sensitive physically & emotionally. I’m not sure if you’re into this but you can try researching about FAM (Fertility Awareness Method). It’s a natural family planning method but I think it’s also good thing to learn if you want to know more about your body and cycle. I don’t think it’s known here in PH yet as local doctors default answer is The Pill (unless you spoke to a holistic doctor, I guess). There are youtube videos explaining this method and also youtuber sharing their experiences getting off the pill, you might want to check that out. Also, there’s this book they’re referring to: Taking Charge of your Fertility. I haven’t read it since it’s not available locally but I am hoping I can get my hands on a copy soon. Sorry if this is too long! Go #teamcup! #onceyougocupyoullnevergoback #optionsforwomen hihi

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    darci

    May 8, 2017

    menstrual cups are a life saver! you can do gym, swimming and not worry about anything at night! you can also look at meluna or lunette. make sure you get the right size for you. :)

  31. Reply

    Gale

    May 26, 2017

    Hey Saab. Looks like you’re already a pro with menstrual cups but I’d like to share this youtube video. When I watched this, it was the first time I heard about cups and I find it informative. Good to know that we girls have a choice! Not yet using the cups but I might consider soon :) https://youtu.be/84Yjy9yR55w

    • Reply

      Saab

      May 28, 2017

      Thanks, Gale!!

  32. Reply

    Isa

    July 2, 2017

    Hi saab! I just wanna know if you can bring birth control pills without prescription going abroad??? I mean pwede ba syang ilagay sa hand-carry bag lang and hndi ba sya iconfiscate ng airport authorities? I just started using it kasi eh and I have a flight to hk next week :D thanks!

    • Reply

      Saab

      July 13, 2017

      Should be fine, it’s not illegal :)

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