I haven’t blogged in years.

Date
Dec, 22, 2020

I’ve written some long captions on Instagram but I haven’t written written.

Is it like riding a bike? I’ve definitely tried to balance and pedal a few times but I would always topple over and I just didn’t feel like getting back up.

I started blogging in 2003. I was 15.

Holy shit. I just turned 32 last month. That means I’ve been blogging in some form or another for more than half of my life!

Blogspot, Livejournal, WordPress.com, Tumblr, BlogTV, WordPress.org, Plurk, Twitter, Instagram, and most recently podcasting with Jim on Spotify.

Don’t think I haven’t seen your questions sent to me thru various channels. The most-asked one:

Why aren’t you blogging anymore?

When I look back on my life, I see it as divided in two parts: BEFORE and AFTER child loss.

I didn’t want to look at my old life recorded on my blog. My cheeky pregnancy announcement post pisses me off somehow. Just writing this is creating a lump in my throat.

I’d like to thank the stranger who left this comment on my old post:

Thank you for your empathy.


Jim encouraged me to start a podcast months after we lost Luna. He could tell I missed having an outlet and knew it would help me deal with my depression. I agreed only if he would join me. It felt like the continuation of my blog but I had my best friend right beside me, holding my hand. I’m so grateful that he allowed himself to go outside of his comfort zone for my sake. Our Wake Up With Jim & Saab podcast community continues to grow but I do miss writing in my diary and sharing random stuff on this blog.

If blogging is indeed like riding a bike, well, today’s the day I take off my training wheels.

I can’t wait to feel the wind in my hair again!:)

saabmagalona

122 Comments

  1. Reply

    Rej

    December 30, 2020

    So so so happy you’re baaack, podmom! I missed reading your blog posts!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      Hi Rej!! You are the first ever commenter on my blog version 34785621398761 hahaha!! WELCOME!! Thank you for the warm reception 🙂

  2. Reply

    Raei

    December 30, 2020

    Welcome back podmom!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      HI RAEI!!! Thank you for always supporting!! Nakatulong yata ang Notion tips mo at finally na-publish ko rin to. LOOOL

  3. Reply

    Anna Gonzales

    December 30, 2020

    Finally! Welcome back, Saab!!!! This legit made my night. Thank you Saab for this. I really appreaciate you coming back to blogging. I’m lost for words, (ok ang OA pero kebs!) your blog is somehow part of how I process things up until today. Your words always motivates the teen in me till this day. I’m excited for your future posts. Love you, Saab!! ♡

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      Awww thank you so much Anna!!!

  4. Reply

    Mayee

    December 30, 2020

    I’m all teary and have goosebumps reading through this!!! I’m so happy you found the motivation to just go back on the bike to begin with! Thank YOU for deciding to do so 🙂

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      Thank you, Mayee, for all your support through the years ❤️❤️❤️

  5. Reply

    Kimkim

    December 30, 2020

    Thanks for blogging again, podmom! Will surely enjoy this ride! ☺️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      Thank you!! Welcometothespellsaabblog

  6. Reply

    Yana CG

    December 30, 2020

    Welcome back PodMom! Namiss ko naming lahat ‘to.*virtualhugs* ♥️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      <3<3<3

  7. Reply

    Irish

    December 30, 2020

    Podmom you are inspiring! Can’t wait to read more of your blogs. Super excited to tune in on this journey! 😃

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      Thank you!!

  8. Reply

    AviBuncaras

    December 30, 2020

    Hello Podmom! Welcome back 🙂 I think iba pa rin when you write, I am so excited and thrilled. I’ve been reading your blogs since tumblr days and you’re one of my inspiration. I always like how you express yourself, you tell stories and even your words. I am getting married soon and you know I admire you even more as a mom ♡

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 30, 2020

      Thank you so much for the kind words :)<3 I really appreciate it!!

  9. Reply

    Maria

    December 30, 2020

    Wahhh!!! Been refreshing spellsaab ever since you’ve announced that you’re going back to Blogging!!! Been following you since Tumblr days!! Welcome back podmom!!! Can’t wait to read more

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Hehehe thank you, Maria!!:)

  10. Reply

    27

    December 31, 2020

    You back Saab with a vengeance. I miss all your “kwentos” here na sobrang relate ako. Labyu po. ♡ (‘Di papatalbog kay Content King)

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Hahaha thank you!!

  11. Reply

    Lyka Sumido

    December 31, 2020

    Welcome back, podmom! Your words and stories bring so much comfort, regardless of the platform. Missed Spell Saab so much. So excited for this! Know that we’re always here to ride with you! 🚴🏻‍♀️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      THANK YOU, LYKA!!

  12. Reply

    Ara

    December 31, 2020

    Hi Podmom, New reader here 💛 Welcome baaack!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Hi Ara!!! OMG so you missed all my kalat! Great!:)) WelcometotheSpellSaabblog!!!

  13. Reply

    D

    December 31, 2020

    Welcome back, Saab 💜

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you 🙂

  14. Reply

    Maane DG

    December 31, 2020

    Good to have you back, Saab! ❤️❤️❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thanks, I’m really excited for the new year woohoooo!:)

  15. Reply

    Mikka

    December 31, 2020

    Omg Saab I’m so so so happy you’re back!! I love you, Jim, and the boys!! Looking forward to reading your thoughts again huhu

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thanks, Mikka!! Sana di kayo ma-overwhelm sa over-sharing ko :)))

  16. Reply

    Plinky

    December 31, 2020

    Hi podmom, I’m so thrilled you’re back! I’ve been such a fan every since I was like 12 jamming to your “troubled look” song. I hope to see the boys jamming to that song as well and see what they think about it? Hmmm. Anyway, praying for you and your family to have more strength and blessings. Love you guys 🥰

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      OH EM. Hahahaha ang luma ng Troubled Look :))) Thank you!!

  17. Reply

    Guijette

    December 31, 2020

    The best pahabol for 2020!! I’m so happy to see a blog post from you podmom ❤️ I remember opening your blog years ago and I haven’t stopped being a fan ever since. Thank you for being you and for sharing it with us!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you, Guijette!!<3

  18. Reply

    Sah

    December 31, 2020

    Yay! Thanks for the update podmom! I love reading your blogs. It somehow helped me through my days since 2010 🙂 Welcome back!!! 🧡

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Huhuuhu 2010, good times! Welcome back to you as well <3

  19. Reply

    Kaye

    December 31, 2020

    I’m soooooo glad yer back, Saaby!!! Missed you so much here in Spell Saab. Though may podcast, Twitter, and IG.. iba pa din talaga here!!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      TRUUUUUUUUEEE!!!

  20. Reply

    Bea Sacdalan

    December 31, 2020

    I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND I’LL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU!!!! 😭❤️ You have my heart always, podmom!

  21. Reply

    Yana

    December 31, 2020

    Awww podmom!! ❤️❤️❤️ This makes me so happy 😍 I remember reading your blogs when I was around 16-17y/o… now I’m turning 28 next month 😭😂 can’t wait for the next blogs!! Love ya pod mom! Sending hugs! ❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      <3<3<3 THANK YOU FOR STICKING AROUND!!

  22. Reply

    Len

    December 31, 2020

    Welcome back, Saab!!! Also, ngayon ko lang na-realize na since 2008 pa pala ako nagfa-fan girl sayo omg. Twitter, Plurk and Tumblr days. The kulot, black/red nails, shorts and sleeveless top Saab OOTD hahaha. Grabe. Haha. Just continue writing kasi you have no idea how it helped me during college days. Nakatanggal ng stress ko yung mga simpleng tweets and Tumblr posts mo noon. 🙂 I’m so happy omg <3

  23. Reply

    Yumi

    December 31, 2020

    Welcome back, Podmom! Excited to know, read, hear your stories again! ❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Hehehehe sana hindi kayo ma-alienate masyado sa mom content ko :))))

  24. Reply

    ladyjune

    December 31, 2020

    *banana dance* SHE’S BACK! <3

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Hahahaha PLURKADA IS DED THO :)))))))

  25. Reply

    Nikka

    December 31, 2020

    So happy to see an email saying Spell Saab is back! Grabe, you are my inspiration in ways you I can’t even imagine. Welcome back, Saab! Looking forward to your future blogs..

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Awww thank you so much 🙁

  26. Reply

    MBCG

    December 31, 2020

    Welcome back! 🙂 We’ve missed you!! I agree with the last commenter, it’s still different when you write so you can’t imagine how I’m likewise thrilled to know you’re blogging again <3 No pressure though. Just know that we're here and will always be so <3 Thank you for making us smile and warming our hearts with this wonderful news just before the yr ends, Saab <3

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you so much!!!!

  27. Reply

    Llana

    December 31, 2020

    😭 So happy you’re back, podmom!!! What a great year ender/starter!!! Woohoo!!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      ITO NA TALAGA PROMISE HAHA

  28. Reply

    Shara

    December 31, 2020

    Naiiyak ako!! The last time you blogged i kinda feel that it would be the last. Welcome back!! ❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you, Shara!!!!

  29. Reply

    Angelina

    December 31, 2020

    I’m honestly super pumped for this. I have something else to tune in to in addition to the podcast haha! Awesome way to end 2020, SO looking forward to following your blog Saab! ❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you!!

  30. Reply

    Lis

    December 31, 2020

    So glad to have you back!

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      <3<3

  31. Reply

    Ayie

    December 31, 2020

    SHE BACC!!! So glad that you’re back in blogging, Saab. We missed this! ❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      YAY thank you for the warm welcome 🙂

  32. Reply

    LEX

    December 31, 2020

    AAAAAH I’M SO HAPPY 😭

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      :):):) ME TOO I feel like nanganak ulit ako. HAHA

  33. Reply

    Eunice

    December 31, 2020

    So happy you’re back! I’ve been reading your blog since theincugirl days! Feels like I’ve grown with you from your Emily the Strange phase to being our podmom. Happy New Year Saab, Jim, Kuya Puddy and Vitvit! ❤️❤️❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      HAHAHA SAAB THE STRANGE!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you!!

  34. Reply

    Chami

    December 31, 2020

    Saaaaaab OMG just dropping by to saaay I love your family! 😍😗 Your boys are the best! Happy New Year 😗

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you, Chami <3<3

  35. Reply

    Camilk

    December 31, 2020

    You are my favorite blogger! Welcome back! Excited to read your entries! 😊

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Shetttt the pressure!! JK!! Thank you!<3

  36. Reply

    Lou

    December 31, 2020

    So happy you’re finally back, Saab. I miss typing spellsaab.com for your updates. I always enjoy reading your stories. More chikas, photos and recommendations please. love love

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      <3<3<3 THANK YOU!

  37. Reply

    R

    December 31, 2020

    I remember religiously reading your blog back when I was in high school. Welcome back, Saab 🤗🤗

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      HI REESE!! Oh emmmmmmm totoo ba?? Hahaha! Thank youuuu!!

  38. Reply

    Andi

    December 31, 2020

    WELCOME BACK, SAAB!!! 🥰💖

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      Thank you, Andi!!

  39. Reply

    Farn

    December 31, 2020

    Glad to be reading a blog entry again! my late bestfriend and I were regular readers, witnessed the halt, got worried back then with the sudden lack of update, then felt comforted seeing you slowly get back up.. looking back, i wish i could have said something as nice as what OJ said, coz really, as much as we craved for updates back then, we just really wanted the assurance that you were okay. you going back to blogging is very comforting in a lot of ways! more power, Saab!

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      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      I’m so sorry about your bestfriend 🙁 Thank you for sticking around through the years. <3

  40. Reply

    Gillian

    December 31, 2020

    Omg! This is one of the best for the end of 2020! Thank you for this, PodMom! ❤️

    • Reply

      saabmagalona

      December 31, 2020

      <3<3<3 Thank YOU!!

  41. Reply

    Javi

    December 31, 2020

    Your blog comforted me way back when I was a weird, lost, college kid. Somehow, I felt like I grew up with you. 2020 was a fucked up year. You have no idea how this post made me happy. I have nothing else to say but

    thank you and welcome back, Saab.